pnpdevil666

welll... let's see. I have been here in Connecticut for 6.5 months now, and am really fucking bored with this place. Last nite, on a last ditch attempt to do something fun, I went out with some of my employees from work. We hit this strip club, Scruples, in Bridgeport. waste of time. Two drinks, got the fuck outta there. Went to a place called Gator's... cute bartender, slow crowd, really depressing. Two drinks, adios. Downtown shelton now... to downtown Danny O's- there were more fucking lame college jerkoffs there than I could count... I have bounced many times to make ends meet, and this place made me want to throw out everyone... just lame. I was in a pretty good mood last nite, but everywhere we went, it just had the wrong feel. two drinks, adios Danny O's. So, I still ended up back in my hotel room, alone again on a saturday nite. Bullshit.

I am very much looking forward to finishing this project, and heading to St. Petersburg FL for my next project, which should be starting towards the end of this year. I am even more motivated now to get the CT project done, because it will benfit both the company and myself.

I dont know what to do or how to feel about a personal life... I am more than dedicated to my job, and part of me says, "well, make the sacrifice now, to secure a much better future for myself," while the other part is reeling from lack of companionship and human interaction. Eventually, I will just get fed up, I guess.

My drums are in NY, and I have not played in months... another sacrifice mad for this job. Its killing me.

I feel fucking empty right now. Soulless.