Monday Jan 23, 2006

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Yay!!! game night was awesome. I had such a good time with everyone there. Thanks for inviting me Ramby. I just realized who Angeluca was (Angeluca, that first pic on your journal is pretty bad ass, probably one of the most erotic pics I've seen, at leas ton here, kudos smile) from Bramby's journal. Didn't get the connection until her comment. Daniel is pretty damn cool when he talks. Everyone was just freakin great.
Ick, I have so much to do tat I put off until today. I shouldve taken care of a lot of stuff friday. I need to pay some bills like yesterday, and I made a doctors appt for this week. and I so need a freaking new car now. On my way to Ramby's last tuesday I almost went the wrong way and when I tried to cut over to miss the exit I hit a small barrier and now I need a new tire. Just started wigging out today so I think I have another day or two , but still I want to just get a new car and not deal with this one anymore.
Things aren't going very well to begin the week at work. Don't think the experiments will be very positive. oh well, some will go ok hopefully and maybe next week will pick up. crap.
p.s. you should be able to see my wings in my profile pic now smile
redwildflower:
No, I'm positive. I just got really sad. He was making me feel like I wasn't all that great but I was there. So, I freaked out and asked him if he's just looking for a booty call or what. And I told him that I'm not the booty call type. I guess it was how I said it because I was upset. I mean he said that there are some girls that you are head over heels for and some girls you aren't but after spending time with them you might be and I was the spending time girl. WTF! How offending is that. Anyway, he got offended and then I got more upset and we went on about it for about an hour. Then I wanted to leave he was going to bed but it was too foggy so I was stuck there. Then he kept telling me I'm difficult and negative. I felt like he felt guilty about hurting my feelings and being a insensitive jerk so he was blaming me for it and saying how awful I am. I was just soooo happy to leave.

What's awful abou it is that I feel like it was all my fault and I'm some horrible person and I just can't shake it. He either played a really good mind trip on me or it really was my fault but either way I'm so down and can't shake it off. frown In fact, the feeling of me being awful is so strong that if he did called I would probably talk to him or hang out just to prove to him that I"m not. Weird I know. It's very not like me.

So, that's the main just of what happened.

[Edited on Jan 23, 2006 5:19PM]

[Edited on Jan 23, 2006 5:20PM]

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