Even though I've been a fan of Suicide Girls for many years now, I only recently joined as an annual membership. I knew that signing up as a member was the right thing for me because I was a fan of the community as well as the models who pose for us. I had no idea how amazing the vast majority of members Hopefuls and full SG were til I started to get to know a few of you. Through the conversations that ive had and blogs that I've read I thought that if I wanted to be a part of this community I should be as exposed physically as I have been mentally. If these woman are willing to not only show off their exquisite bodies time and time again but expose their souls through their art or writing or music. Whatever the medium they choose it merely exposes them more and on so many deeper levels.
So I embarked on this photographic journey. Having no idea what was ahead of me. So I manscaped/shaved and got started. I was shooting for a 25 shot set. I ended up taking 103 photos and still only came up with 20 that I didn't hate. I was given a theme by a follower but other than that I was left to come up with tasteful thought out shots that would showcase the pleasing parts of me and disguise the blemishes. its funny how many blemishes you realize you have when you take naked photos of yourself in weird positions. but I digress. I can tell you how much water was on my floor when I was done. I had to get in and out of a shower just to start the next timer. I couldn't let the bathroom steam up for clearer shots, so I was freezing. I fought shrinkage the entire time. All while trying to capture a vision in each shot. Its funny how focused you get. It took hours to get all the poses I wanted (most of which got deleted). Once I was done I dried off, got dressed(flannel jammies) and sat down to a bong rip and a bunch of editing.
The editing process was sort of pain staking. I was just dumping photo after photo. The whole time worried I was going to have to take more. Finally I counted and had like 40. Now the next problem was which are the best of those because im way over the limit I set. so I widdled it down to 30. now it was really tough. I wanted each photo to have its own personality but I realized I had to choose between very similar poses. I inadvertently cropped on and notice I could improve one pose to eliminate 3. So the cropping began. that didn't take as long as I thought. once I saw a pattern of where focus should be I zoomed along. feeling good about the style and the subject. I left the filters alone and was happy with the raw feel of the pic. im a garage band type of guy. gimme some rough edges.
To tell the truth the hardest part of the process was trying to figure out how to post it. I wanted to post it in a blog like this but it kept failing. So I just let it go live. Granted I did limit it to followers only since Ive never been photographed nude and posted like that.
Since I posted it about 12 hours ago, Ive had time to think about the entire process. the physical, emotional, and metal journeys I went on during this. I respect all of you models so much. You really put up with a lot to get it right. Im also proud of all of you for being able to have the courage to be yourselves and expose it to all of us. And not just your Photos. Your everything. I see and appreciate it so Thank You
To the photographers I tip my hat. It isn't easy making what you see in your head a photo on a page. the lights and sets/backgrounds. The creative process that can easily leave you frustrated. The task of having to be your own critic and literally throw your own work away because you hate it. I didn't even do any touch up stuff. That a facite I didn't even broach. But still was all so much work. I was drained completely by bed time.
To anyone this reaches here on SG, Please take a second and thank the people involved here. SG does wonderful things for wonderful girls. And that SG is just a platform for these Girls to pursue their dreams as artists or sculptors or musicians or writers or dancers or models or or or or ...
So in closing I have a new found appreciation for photography, modeling, all the models, and members, myself (i really learn alot about my own confidence and creativity)and SG. Thank you all!!!!!!!
I Love You All
Demian
