pkybear

So today was a little rough. I keep screwing some stuff at work. Other things I do alright, but I need to improve my mistakes. I know the cause, but I feel like it is a cop out. I mean January was a bad month and it rolled into February. This month I feel a little better about things. Losing the baby was really hard....
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Ok, I just wanted to thank everyone for there thoughts.

Ok here is what happened. Last tuesday we went to the doctor and found out that the baby's heart had stopped sometime in mid Dec. There was no warning or anything. The doctor told us it was rare. Honestly I really don't know how rare since so many people have come forward to tell us...
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I wanted to write something, but I am not really sure what I am going to say. I am sitting downstairs on the couch and I just heard Melissa laugh. It does bring a tear of joy to my heart to hear her laugh. One of the cats must be trying to dig under the covers. I love those damn cats. They have been really...
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Today I am broken.
I am a man without a heartbeat.
I am lost and don't know how to console my wife.
I would almost pray, but I don't know how.
No one ever said life would be fair, but this is to much.
To have a gift taken away.
I so wanted to hold my baby girl in my arms.
Today that will never...
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So it will be the new year soon. I hope every one has a good and safe one. Not much to say really. I move in a month. Need to start packing. Going to go to a friends for new years. Just going to have a nice quiet evening. Christmas was pretty okay. Got a few gifts I liked. Not to much junk. We received...
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So the second job is done, yeah! Of course I will miss the extra cash. There are no more Whitehall's based in richmond. The rest should be closed by the first week of the new year. I can't believe I am finally out of the jewelry business. I've been trying to do that for years. I will miss it, but I am done. At least...
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So this weekend has been real interesting. Got off early friday because I was going to go out of town. I decide not to because my lovely wife could not go. So I stayed home and played video games. Good start so far. Well on saturday had to go to the second job. Who by the way is still screwing up my paychecks. They keep...
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SO this week has had it's ups and downs so far. Over the weekend my eye was itching a bit, and low and behold I wake up with the worst fucking stye ever on monday. It was so damn swollen I could not even open up my eye. With no depth perception I did not feel comfortable driving to work. So I stay home and...
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So I got my final paycheck from my old job, and get this shit. They took out $5.00 because it was a paper-check. Talk about bullshit. I had direct deposit but since I no longer work there your final check is a paper check. BULLSHIT! And to think I went back as a part-timer starting today because my buddy asked me too. They had a...
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So this week we hit 16 weeks. On Dec 2nd we get to find out what the sex of the baby is.