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i don't have a relationship with my dad, i don't even address him as dad/father, never have. it's not that he did much wrong, it's more that he didn't do or care for anything about me. he's trying to make up for it every now and then but he has no idea what to do and there is no point anymore. i don't judge or hate him, he's not important to me.

will be a nice tattoo for sure

it's weird how Donnie Darko has become more famous over the years. it has a huge following in the UK, but hardly anyone knows it in germany.

with my dad, it's more what didn't happened than what did, if you know what i mean. we were never close or talked much and i've always been "the big dissapointment".

September isn't that far away, how long would you have to wait to get an appointment?

Fall Out Boy.. yuck. XD
don't like them at all. it is a great film though, i love how you can watch it over and over and still find new things each time.

i've never thought about that, it's intresting though. i wonder, shouldn't it be the same for black babies then when they see a white person for the first time?

at least he was friendly ^^

so were we, but they settled down way too fast. in fact that girl that took my phone was more aggressive than the two guys... XD

ghosts? haha, i like that. ^^

i did some pics of my favorite figures btw, will post them soon

are we talking about changes in attitude, taste or clothes? i think my newer friends don't realise any changes, but the few old ones might, they don't say anything about it though.
i don't really have that many people in my life, most of them are just people i know somehow, very few of them are considered close friends.
i'd love to say i'm ready for a another relationship, but i don't think i am really. it would be best for me for sure.
your friends don't want to cuddle?? booo on them!!! *cuddles*

ah, i see. it's hard to say, i'm the same person i used to be, yet i'm complitely different in some ways, it just depends. the way i feel and care about certain things, deal with some situations and my needs have changed for sure.

i'd love to go from one relationship to the next, but it's never that easy for me. it's not my decision, i'd love to be with someone and maybe everything would be good if i could find the right person, i just can't believe in it again yet and i don't want to let myself be fooled again or waste my energy on someone not worth it.

i have a bunch of people who don't mind cuddling at all, girls and guys, straight and gay. the thing is, no one is ever around when i'm in the mood to cuddle and whenever i meet with them i often can't bear such closeness.
at least you're having fun, so it's not all bad ^^

that last pic is priceless

wow, your munny is coming along awesome!

I'm glad everything worked out with the party situation. I know you were worried about that.

Hope you survive the parental visit! It's like a combination of being happy to see them and annoyed as hell, wanting them to leave. Been there, done that.

uhm, you need to explain the husband thing, i'm not sure i'm really getting it. ^^

very true. there's just little of intrest here for me and i can't stand the majority of people.
i only get my sleeve touched up, don't have any money for a new tattoo

i'd have to find a different kind of job, but i'd probably have to do that here as well some day.
sometimes i'm perfectly fine with staying here, other times i just want to get away as far as possible...
i know where that comes from, so i'm trying not to do anything stupid

it's the same for me most of the times. i often end up just eating cookies or a sandwich

i know what i want to take pictures of, it's just not easy to get. i can't just take pics of people without asking them...

that's cool! i don't even watch tv, there's nothing of intrest on it here.... skins is awesome!!

Yeah. You're totally not jealous.
At all.

No way.

i don't have any memories that far back myself. germany might be nice to visit, but it's really boring to live here.
London is such a nice change, so many intresting and unusual people and no one makes a big deal out of how you look.

it's like that for me too. might take a while cause i want to be sure it's the right place before i decide, but it will certainly happen. the only thing that worries me is the difficulty of finding a job some place else, but that won't be any easier here so it doesn't really matter and i don't want to stay here forever.

hm... i do that with cooking. don't do it everyday, though, often end up eating crapp all day. ^^

uhuh, it's much better to do something creativ, i'm trying to do that with photography. every once in a while i draw a bit, but i'm too impatient and never satisfied.

it's strange how popularity differs with such things. we usually only get whats popular in the states. it's stupid really... there's so much good stuff like Dead Like Me or Skins (best british series imo) but germany will probably never get to see those.

unlike some other people, i do respond to every comment. there's just not too much to talk about sometimes or people stop talking. ^^

Thanks for wondering where I was. That made my day.

haha, don't worry, there'll be other hips pics someday

just be natural next time you see him, i'm he'll like it.
that's not to bad about Hachi, her caring for other people is a very nice thing. i didn't like her naiv, whiny, sluty attitude in the beginning.
Yasu is about the strongest character in the series and i'm hoping to get like that too. i can find a lot of my past in the other characters struggles, but i don't want to be like that anymore.

yeah, i've become very reluctant to new anime, many of them are a waste of time. like you said, it's always the same, over and over, no originality. try Texnolyze it's good.

i think i figured out what i didn't like about the scruff by now and i'll give it another shot, but i don't think i can pull it off the way i'd like it to be. and thanks

oh he laughed about it afterwards, so it wasn't too bad. ^^

i'm not into remakes as well. there are very good ones, but many of them aren't necessary and not good at all.
good ones: The Thing, Halloween, Red Dragon, King Kong.
bad ones: The Ring, Shutter, Rec, Night of the Living Dead
you liked My Bloody Valentine?? the original was kind of boring as i remember it and the remake was so annoying, i stopped half way through.

true. that sidecharacters are great, i love the porn actress, forgot her name right now...
maybe that's also a bit why i didn't like ParaKiss as much as Nana, couldn't relate to the characters as much.

ah yeah, the old prejudices... they used to bash anime (and the fans) because of the hentai stuff, but the german scene has done a good job at pretending there's no such thing as violent porn, that generall people think anime is kids stuff only. i don't even care about those opinions, but i hate what has become of the german scene. it used to be very cool and underground enough so that the main magazine did reports on hentai all the time, it was accepted as a part of the overall scene. now everything is mainstream and that same magazine is about 60% advertising and the talk about the same kids series over and over again. there's hardly anything worth picking up here anymore.


the 3D thing surely must have been good! the Friday 13th remake was ok imo, characters were all annoying assholes, but it was watchable. ^^

You know what I think you should do to replace your loss?

HAVE A BABY.
Find a hot guy with the "good hair", as well as nice lips and green eyes and get physical.
It's the Black thing to do.

Oh THAT guy.
You ladies and your difficult men, I swear.

Come to Mile High Music Fest next weekend!! See Incubus!!