So I finally decided to pull my head out of my ass and come back to life!
It seems like I've been dead for quiet a while. I've been with friends sometimes and other than that, I've been hiding in my house like a sort of hermit... Hermit...? I don't know if that really applies. Anywho, I'm better. I was borderline depressed and things just weren't working for me. From troubles with the bank (which was resolved later) to the car accident ill not being resolved, and my relationship problems... I was just down, with a smiling facade to say otherwise.
But I'm back and smiling and with good feelings. I don't know. Without going into detail with what all was going on all I can say is that today made it better. I went to my favorite store Whole Foods this morning. I've been itching to make some soup. Everyone there was so smiley and talkative. Even the other customers. It was odd. Its not often you just feel the 'good vibrations' flowing from everyone around you. That helped. Then getting home and actually cooking was like a refresher. I love cooking and its been almost two months since I last actually cooked something. I've gotten a few pictures drawn, nothing coloured really, well a few things. I got new bed sheets. Organic cotton, feel amazing!
I'm still not with Josh. I haven't even talked to him. I keep having dreams about him though. About us and what we could be. can anybody tell me how to make that shit stop...? Well it sort of stopped and that didn't help how I was feeling at all. But... I've resolved that I'm probably not gonna get him. I wont sweat the small stuff so to speak. I'm stuck on him and so be it. But I'm not gonna end living my life cause of it.
My best friend Tommy and I are back to normal. I still love him and he loves me. I'm picking up important people and cherishing the ones I have. I'm also being vocal against those that are pissing me off. My transgendered friend was one of the people trying to steal my identity, well bits of it. So I just casually wrote him back and explained things to him. Held my tongue but got it all out. I guess I'll have to wait for a reply, if there is one.
Love, peace and tofu grease....
Yes its greasy.... and yes I'm lying.
It seems like I've been dead for quiet a while. I've been with friends sometimes and other than that, I've been hiding in my house like a sort of hermit... Hermit...? I don't know if that really applies. Anywho, I'm better. I was borderline depressed and things just weren't working for me. From troubles with the bank (which was resolved later) to the car accident ill not being resolved, and my relationship problems... I was just down, with a smiling facade to say otherwise.
But I'm back and smiling and with good feelings. I don't know. Without going into detail with what all was going on all I can say is that today made it better. I went to my favorite store Whole Foods this morning. I've been itching to make some soup. Everyone there was so smiley and talkative. Even the other customers. It was odd. Its not often you just feel the 'good vibrations' flowing from everyone around you. That helped. Then getting home and actually cooking was like a refresher. I love cooking and its been almost two months since I last actually cooked something. I've gotten a few pictures drawn, nothing coloured really, well a few things. I got new bed sheets. Organic cotton, feel amazing!
I'm still not with Josh. I haven't even talked to him. I keep having dreams about him though. About us and what we could be. can anybody tell me how to make that shit stop...? Well it sort of stopped and that didn't help how I was feeling at all. But... I've resolved that I'm probably not gonna get him. I wont sweat the small stuff so to speak. I'm stuck on him and so be it. But I'm not gonna end living my life cause of it.
My best friend Tommy and I are back to normal. I still love him and he loves me. I'm picking up important people and cherishing the ones I have. I'm also being vocal against those that are pissing me off. My transgendered friend was one of the people trying to steal my identity, well bits of it. So I just casually wrote him back and explained things to him. Held my tongue but got it all out. I guess I'll have to wait for a reply, if there is one.
Love, peace and tofu grease....
Yes its greasy.... and yes I'm lying.
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i have to figure out exactly where i want to go first.