pixietom

So...
I asked him about it. I finally just took what my friends were saying which was 'asking him out'

I did earlier today and trust me I freaked out for the whole day. I've been rejected without a reply, sort.
But no... not this time. But don't get too excited.
He said... I don't know, and then explained why. He's having a lot of problems with himself and who he is.
Then he said he didn't mean to hurt with that answer, and all that. Honestly, in that ass backwards way. I like him even more for doing that. Saying that... Like it was kind. And from my horrible little bits of freaking out and wanting to cry it was a wonderful relief.

I miss him right now. Talking to him. I want to help him get better.
But hopefully he wont get dependent upon what I can give.

I feel happy and content. I've been happy before, but I finally have this level. A whole new level.
We feel forbidden. Like we shouldn't even be friends, its intense. I want that intensity.
But for this time. I want to be there for him.

So I'm one step closer to getting a guy I want, but I wonder what complications will come in the way and prevent it.

So I admit it... I'm a smitten kitten.