Its a small issue I shan't let just be read, so its hidden if you want to see it.
My last night tid-bits
This morning I went to Whole Foods, my old usual one, and I was walking around and all that. I'm addicted to these vegetarian muffins and as I went to get some I saw Tyler... Tyler and I have this weird sort of relationship. We friends in a way, that I like him and he is happy about it... Other than that, we can hold long conversations and crap and joke about anything. The whole deal with my 'friends' somehow managed to try and pull him into it. He was smart though and stayed out of it. He knows I like him, and he's told me that he's doesn't want a relationship. I don't either, I just prefer for the guy I like to know that... Helps me move on, if I can. Ever since then, we haven't spoken and I've been avoiding that store and anything related to him.
But I had to see him today.. I almost dropped my carry-basket. He doesn't usually work in the morning... So I ignored him, after that first glance I did my best to not look over there. I'm literally 6 feet away from him! he's at coffee bar and i'm right at the bakery and I can't really escape, cause I had to have my muffins. I got upset that he didn't even notice me, I kinda wished he missed me too, even just a little bit. I'm looking between Zucchini, Lemon Poppy Seed, or Nutty Carrot muffins when all of a sudden two arms just wrap around me. I froze, probably had a dear in headlights look on my face... It was him. he made some remark about scaring me and that he had to go drop something off in another department...
As he walked away, I'm pretty sure I sighed... He's a complex one in my eyes. Most guys I figure them out when it comes to any sort of relationship with me... I was shocked. He did see me, and all that other girly shit that crossed my mind. He's the guy I want, that even as others come in the way I still think maybe. Our situation is weird, for reasons he probably doesn't even know about. I know a lot of girls adore him... A lot. I always wonder where I fit in...Do i make the cut...? I don't know...
All I can say is that it felt nice to be in his arms, once the fear wore off.
Sometimes I hate being a female.
I'm addicted to this song. Like seriously. I'm spell bound by it.
It`s an advantage if you like math cause like you say, it`s everywhere and that`s what bothers me haha lol
What kind of art do you like?
Do you think it`s clingy when you tell it twice? I mean it`s kinda like a burden every time you see him. But yeah i know how it is or was...
Got a nice camera for my 18th birthday, well it was pretty good at that time and it still does a decent job but didn`t use it that much as I hoped...
Maybe I should take time and experiment with it
I see, well hope everything turns out well then with him