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Jasmine Blossom Green Tea ... Blood Orange Cranberry Tea ... Honey Lemon Herbal Tea ... Decaf English Breakfast Tea ... Enlightening Green Tea
I've had a lot of tea today.

I can grow flowers from where dirt used to be.

I'm a little bothered with myself. I'm still dealing with a lot of stress of the people that I'm trying to leave behind. For the most part I'm doing a great job of it, but the main problem keeps coming up and bothering me. Trying to tear me down a little bit more, like that will make me come back. Our relationship was abusive in ways. Mentally. Though I would have preferred a beating, at least I would have been able to protect myself, fight back from something I knew was coming.

I can be alone, I can watch a sunset on my own, I can be alone...

I went to my favorite place for shopping for food. Whole Foods. The place is always crawling with hot boys that work there... Like what?! While there I think I might have fallen in love a little bit. Just a little bit. To the tall brunette male with long hair pulled up in a bun underneath a black hat that says 'Whole Foods' on it. His piercing eyes never once landed on me, except a glance when I was walking up. I know I shouldn't have. But I was staring, and I kinda didn't care if he noticed. My 'brother' is his boss... slightly awkward. But i like him and I don't even know his name. He has these adorable space cadet moments where he forgets whats going on around him. I was there for over an hour. I had time to notice. I need to stop this... But I never do. He has eyes like a perfect spy... I love spies. Help me not be stupid... again.

One of the most amazing things in the world to me right now. I can't stop giggling and clapping.