What a horrible day yesterday... I had a pretty severe panic attack and missed a class-- first week! I hate this shit and I need to get it under control. I've been having day-long panic attacks at least once a week and I can't do that during the semester. It seems like such a fight this time around. I feel like I'm thinking clearly and managing my life well... except for these routine break-downs.
It hasn't been this bad in a long time. I'm kind of scared. I don't know what I'm going to do if these attacks don't stop.
Y'know, I love my school. I love the campus, I love the professors, I love how much I've learned... but the fucking students here, I swear to god. Yesterday before class I heard these two guys bitching about how one of their professors had put a women's rights spin on the class. I would understand from the perspective of you think you're taking this class, but it turns out the teacher has an ax to grind, but no. These assholes were complaining about women's rights in general, how they didn't agree with any of the principles and how they were just going to lose it in class and give 'em all a piece of their mind.
NO PUSSY FOR YOU! If you have that big of a problem with women's lib, then you get NO PUSSY, because you don't love it enough.
I feel that a large-scale outrageous sexual feminist project is in order.
I don't understand why an art school on the gulf coast of Florida has so many assholes and so few cool people in it. Don't get me wrong, not everybody is included in this, I have friends in the plural, but man. I'm accustomed to people taking nude self-portraits of themselves in high school, not this like, fucking bigotry. I know I need to just get over it, let it roll off my back, but it bothers me. I don't want to even tell people that I'm bi, or that I'm in an open relationship, or that I've found, through practical experience, not hope, that my creativity is stimulated by altered states of perception.
Anyway, love and kisses to all the other people down from the return to school. With any luck, soon we'll be too busy to think about it.
It hasn't been this bad in a long time. I'm kind of scared. I don't know what I'm going to do if these attacks don't stop.
Y'know, I love my school. I love the campus, I love the professors, I love how much I've learned... but the fucking students here, I swear to god. Yesterday before class I heard these two guys bitching about how one of their professors had put a women's rights spin on the class. I would understand from the perspective of you think you're taking this class, but it turns out the teacher has an ax to grind, but no. These assholes were complaining about women's rights in general, how they didn't agree with any of the principles and how they were just going to lose it in class and give 'em all a piece of their mind.
NO PUSSY FOR YOU! If you have that big of a problem with women's lib, then you get NO PUSSY, because you don't love it enough.
I feel that a large-scale outrageous sexual feminist project is in order.
I don't understand why an art school on the gulf coast of Florida has so many assholes and so few cool people in it. Don't get me wrong, not everybody is included in this, I have friends in the plural, but man. I'm accustomed to people taking nude self-portraits of themselves in high school, not this like, fucking bigotry. I know I need to just get over it, let it roll off my back, but it bothers me. I don't want to even tell people that I'm bi, or that I'm in an open relationship, or that I've found, through practical experience, not hope, that my creativity is stimulated by altered states of perception.
Anyway, love and kisses to all the other people down from the return to school. With any luck, soon we'll be too busy to think about it.
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todd31:
what no pussy 
everyone needs some every now and then 
good luck with the panic attacks they suck I know
everyone needs some every now and then good luck with the panic attacks they suck I know 
badsanta:
Great set on the hopefuls group. You have nothing to be anxious about.