pixieprincessa

every death is like an atom bomb dropped on my ability to reason.
each time is harder than the last and some are harder than others.
at his memorial, like 4 times tonite, i thought i saw josh out of the corner of my eye or over my shoulder or wherever. what a mindfuck that is.
i know i should go to sleep but i've spent the last 3 hours crying. my eyes sting from tears and makeup in em.
i wrote this kinda beautiful thing on my friend's profile on myspace but i cant remember it now. maybe i'll post it here when she posts it there.
my head is pounding and i'm exhausted. i think i might actually be able to sleep now.

i love this song:





edit, 11/26, 11am:
here's what i wrote on my friend's myspace
i've been having a really hard time understanding some things recently. but i always understand why we love each other.
my eyes are sore from not understanding and crying to compensate. i'm sick of people dying around me so instead i need your arms around me. i need a hug.
and i need you and i need to see you and i love you.