So, I've decided to no longer pursue becoming a Suicidegirl. It just isn't gonna happen. Me, like almost everygirl on here, joined the site and thought "Holy cow! that is so cool! I want to be one of them!" But that just isn't going to happen for me and I am cool with that. I feel like I've grown up a little upon realizing this. I've been here for so long and I'm on here everyday (If being on SG were my job I would be a freaking CEO) and SG has just changed for me. It is no longer about naked girls. It wasn't all that much about naked girls in the beginning but now I hardley even look at sets. The girls just don't intrigue me as much anymore. And thus, I realized I will never be one of them...fore I am not a size 4, I don't have perfect hair nor perfect makeup, and I don't live in california. Now, this may sound very pessimistic to you but it really isn't. I have just come to a point in my life where I find that I will prolly never be small enough to be an SG. I am 165, if not 170lbs. and 5'6". I am a thick girl. I can lose weight, sure, but why? to put myself through a grueling and rediculously stressful process just to be nakid on the internet? Nah, I'm good. I am everywomen (except whitney huston....lol) and I am ok with it. I am cute but not hot, therefore I will not be "what the site is looking for at this time" ever. Its fine with me though because I have more important things in store. I have grad school, then looking for a job (as a school psychologist...not gonna get that if i'm nakkie on the internet am I?), get married to a man I am ridiculously in love with and have his big-headed fan-children (and name them Batman and Robin!).
I love this site, obviously. I'm on here way too much. I love the people, that is why I am still here. But I look at the girls who just joined yesterday and they are already posting their rejected sets in the hopefuls group and I am disgusted. Myspace has done horrible things to this site and I miss the SG of 2004. But it will never come back. And these are just a few reasons why I will no longer be thinking about ever becoming a SuicideGirl.
I love this site, obviously. I'm on here way too much. I love the people, that is why I am still here. But I look at the girls who just joined yesterday and they are already posting their rejected sets in the hopefuls group and I am disgusted. Myspace has done horrible things to this site and I miss the SG of 2004. But it will never come back. And these are just a few reasons why I will no longer be thinking about ever becoming a SuicideGirl.
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Now they're just a bunch of crazy skinny things.
(ps. i think you're beautiful)
But I joined this site initially in '04 too (I had to change over to a new account a year later because I had problems with a stalker finding my old account) and it has changed a lot - not necessarily better or worse, just different, though I did prefer the angle of the site back then. I was initially a hopeful too, I even had Sean say that I'd make it and was adorable, but after a while I just realised it wasn't me. I'm not sure I could deal with people on Myspace saying shitty things about me day in day out, people leaving nasty tags on my set, the inevitable in fighting that always happens when you have a large group of girls and in all honesty I don't feel attractive or confident enough. I'll leave that to the other girls, but I'm satisfied being just a member.
So welcome.