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yes nik, you pretty much broke me.

and this one won't be so easy to chainsmoke away.

It's Easier to Drink on an Empty Stomach Than Eat on a Broken Heart
(a song by Joan of Arc)

and he can't destroy me enough it seems. i'm broken and a death wish seems insufficient. FFFFFFFFFF FFFFFF FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF FFFFFFFFFFFFU UUUUUUUUU UUUUUUUUUUUU UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU UUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCC CCCCCCCCCCCCCC CCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKK KKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK KKKKKKKKGGGGOOOOOOOOOO OOOODDDDDDDDAAAAAAAAAA AAMMMMMMMMMNNNNNNNN NNNN
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don't touch me. drink me to sleep. watch me lose 15 pounds this week. get everything out.

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well good god. my cell phone was lost last night. my stomach is...
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well, my Starbucks was robbed at gunpoint this morning so i didn't go in to work today. no one was hurt, but still I'm a little shaken. what a lucky thing it was that I didn't open today.

i'm in the kitchen. my ladytron poster is flapping in the wind rushing through the only open window in my apartment. I like the way sunlight looks...
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i need sex.

shut up.

i want to drive to Duluth. and then keep driving north to tofte or maybe ontario and sit by that great lake that really looks like an ocean. and maybe go camping. have a cigarette. get out of town. i can't relax.

i want a longboard. i want to go longboarding. it feels like fall outside.

i'm going out of town for a week with...
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i won't try to say much. those pictures are burned into my memory. i got home and just started walking. i walked down Franklin, past his corner, and around lake of the isles. i smoked and drank my last can of beer. and thought, as much as one could think in this state, what a stupid stupid girl i am for fucking myself over. but...
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j'ai besoin des vetements pour travailler. pourqoui est ce que je pense en francais? blech. un jour...je saurai tout que j'ai besoin savoir.

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i'm feeling really really stressed and I don't know why.

nicole and I took up a load of stuff to the apartment today and I'm going back tomorrow, to stay. So after tonight I probably won't be online at all for...
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there were getting to be too many pixies around here.

so i changed.

find me a hi-8 and I'll be ready to rock and roll.

Yes- it's true that I'm getting awfully tired of this, but I do believe things will turn out alright. It's like putting a puzzle together in the dark (your cliches match mine perfectly you know!)


I pick up my apartment keys todayalong with Sonic Youth (I won't pick them up of course) but...
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I'm sunburned and smell like stale tortilla chips, but I got to see Rylie and Hot Belly so I am content. The sun was motherfucking beautiful this evening- I saw it in the rearview mirror of my beat up car just a few seconds before the Minneapolis skyline disapeared around a bend in the highway; that bend in the road that takes me away.

An...
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