today, i feel alone.

so completely alone that im unable to make conversation.

everyone is commenting on my silence today and yet i really could care less about the existence of the world.

tommorrow i am going to spend time with my friend Steve. I havent hung out w/ him in two years despite living in the same town. he's like a teddy bear. i think i need a hug from him today. maybe tommorrow if i'm all wierd and anti-social then too.

this is truly a super bizarre feeling.

EDITED:

here is a poem about how much i love winter:

mired in silence i wait for you.
all soft and chaste, winters first snow
intrinsic beauty and crystalline flakes
coast over my skin and we shall be one my lady.
the chill in my fingertips brings ruddy cheeks
wind whipped and lashed with the pain of time,
i wait for you.

here and tonight the longing overwhelms
i'll melt in your arms, caressed by your skin
ice queen, i ache for you.

i smolder for your sting in my pores
your tempermental nature eludes me tonight.
release me from nonchalance
and the burn of summers beating sun
i'll give wholly to you, harsh queen of winter.

if you'll allow me to revel
in the milky white of your skin, i'll cry with solace.
yet, until i find freedom in winters first snow,
it is here, in my dreams that i wait for you.