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and possibly one of my favorites ever

I found some old pictures that are actually like a gold mine on my computer. I have hundreds of pictures on my computer of old naked me. I wasn't always SG material. I was more mainstream girl. But the strange thing is, I've always wanted to model, and it's like this passion that is inside me. I can't deny it. I love the attention and the focus of the lens on me. I love the way a camera can make me look, because I don't see myself like that. The image I have in my head of myself is something so completely different than what the camera captures.

Sometimes I wonder if it will ever be acceptable for me to just be a nude model. I want to focus on being something greater. I want to shoot with the best photographers, and be considered one of the best models. I stive to be easy to work with, and keep my body in good shape. This blog is going no where. I haven't quite formed what I wanted to say. I just want to be a nude model. I feel like there's something inside of me that's yet to be discovered. I feel like I was meant to do this. It may sound odd, but I feel like I was born to do this. But I haven't reached my peak. I'm still formulating.

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Wizard World. I'm excited. It keeps growing closer to me. I can't wait to meet up with all the ladies who will be there. It's been a while since my last SG outing at Vanity's house in Fresno. I'm ready for another adventure.


Current Musical Picks:
1. Regina Spektor
2. Fall Out Boy - their new album is so catchy.. it's musical heroin.
3. The Bronx
4. As I Lay Dying
5. Muse - Origins of Symmetry (their albums are always on my list, but some fit my seasons better than others).

Hope you're all relishing in the last little bits of a lovely weekend. It was so gorgeous in Portland yesterday, and I can't help but want to get outside and take the Che-monster for a walk. She's looking at me right now like she knows what I'm typing. Well, she can probably hear my thoughts. We're tight. And on that note..

besos y pesos,
<3 Pistolita

Thanks to Anarchie for my new profile pics!