piski

I'm not sure how I feel about going home on Wednesday. Everything I'm looking forward to is very sentimental - crazy amounts of cooking, a fire in the fireplace, the idea of content togetherness. But reality is starting to kick in a little, and I'm worried. I'm going to have to split time between my two families and try not to hurt anyone, knowing that someone's feelings are probably going to get hurt anyway. I'm also concerned that, as well as my dad and I get along when we're not living together, control issues will kick in again when we have to share space. (This is also why I'm only staying for three days.) And as selfish as I know this is, I'm not looking forward to answering the same questions repeatedly, particularly when I know that I'm not actually going to be honest about any problems that I'm having with college.

But the upside: free/good food, a real mattress, my own unshared room, a non-dorm bathroom, TREES(!), a limited amount of schoolwork, catching up with old friends, my brother, horses, a break in routine. When it comes down to it I'm going to try to look at this optimistically. It tends to help things turn out better.