pirra

me and the roomies might go to this gay dance. . . it would be so much fun.
chances are it won't happen for any variety of reasons though.
it would be interesting if only to check out the scenery. the idea of going there to pick up a girl is abhorent to me however, the idea of hitting on anyone at this point makes me weary. all the energy that is involved in the chasing the catching. . . fuck it. adrian is coming up next weekend. . . i am so excited to hang out with someone i can bounce off of. he sent me some pictures of him where he just happened to not have his shirt on. . . we share a streak of exhibitionism. if i didn't have such great conversations with the boy i wouldn't have given the o.k. for him to come down. frankly, he looks like one of those boys who really cares about how they look and keeps their body toned and blah blah blah, that's fucking gross and typical and vanilla easter egg shit. he offered to fly me to spokane for spring break, i am so fucking broke. i love talking to him, we have things to say to eachother. neither of us are looking to fuck the other, and if we do its really not that strong of an impulse. it would be nice for once however, to like someone who wouldn't fuck me as hard as they possibly could and then say " well, you deserved it."