for all my bellyaching, I had a great time. I wasn't nervous and the girl I kissed and killed was cute and talented. No pics yet, and essentially I just did it cuz I was bored.
I still see this blind jealousy other men have for me so I guess I will have to learn krav maga when Im back in LA. This time it came from some male actor on set. I never accidentally hit him, not once but he was telling people "he keeps coming too close for the fake punch." Dude I've taken hits for films, there is a level of contact slapping, and my ex girl worked for kink.com and would come home all tore up. Anyway for him to tell people he didnt like me really says alot about men. This pathetic pattern runs rampantly. I was professional, I never hit the guy, and he doesnt know me, so telling people you "dont like me" behind my back on set is pathetic. He clearly didnt like that I got the role where I kiss the girl. Well if you didnt look like the sperm of Stevo from Jackass, perhaps you'd have that honor fishface. Everyone else did like me and this frog headed fool didnt have the courage to criticize my fake punches to me directly. Pathetic.
I despise men, I'm vindyktive. From my childhood to the military I've been fighting them. In my punk band they did kind of lay off, but even after, men who I trusted as friends just have tried to put me down, and create this hostile, immature, and insulting environment. I guess this started with my first stepfather and has never let up. I have a few male friends I can gain a masculine balance being around. So many of these lame fuckin dudes just pass out on the couch watching TV. They just wanna watch TV??? You keep doing that, and those of us with passion and creativity will attempt to fill the void. Also briefly touching on this, all these weight lifting jock monsters were sitting here trying to assrape girls while myself and 1% of the male population were at war. You were partying while we were being men, some of us were even honorable warriors. So fuck you. Go spray on some axe and Im just gonna learn krav maga so when you funny little heathens think youre going to hurt me I will undoubtedly castrate you bare handed, like Sonny Chiba. I have turned the other cheek for too long and that time is over. If bloody in a ditch is how you wanna be, I have enough training already to do that, but it's time to fine tune it. Sadly our society isnt neither rational or peaceful, or you just hate me cuz I am. I cant hang with many gay dudes either cuz I dont want stubbly blowjobs, nor to be sexually harassed constantly after explaining to them I love the pussy they fear haha I do have a few chill and supportive queer artist friends that dont spew verbal filth at me constantly.
Women have always been loyal and wonderful to me. This varies in different degrees, but I am definitely better with feminine energy. I can feel even more now. I want a band with women, I admire their power when they rock. I want the gentile touch, I want the magical whisper that soothes me when I want to smash a guy's face. The way men and women express art is beautiful. The collection of female surrealist art that was temporarily at LACMA brought me to tears. Women encourage me to be rad. When I was 11 my grandmother was an angel who liberated me from a house of drunken violence and raised me. When I was gonna throw my guitar in a lake and stop playing music, my dear sweet sisters stopped me. Why did I even write a song? because I loved you. When I feel like something Im gonna wear will draw negative attention, I know a woman would wear it and be cute and confident so I go for it with pride. You beautiful, almost perfect creatures, I love you, you have saved me. I believe in your intuition and I believe in your power to save this world, but it's your responsibility not to become drunk with power, and to stop cheering on the brutality of man. I dream for it all to be handed over to women and we work together in some kind of harmony. We are all flawed, mortal homo sapiens, but I have seen much more integrity in women, and they are my guide. I understand, I forgive, I believe.
I still see this blind jealousy other men have for me so I guess I will have to learn krav maga when Im back in LA. This time it came from some male actor on set. I never accidentally hit him, not once but he was telling people "he keeps coming too close for the fake punch." Dude I've taken hits for films, there is a level of contact slapping, and my ex girl worked for kink.com and would come home all tore up. Anyway for him to tell people he didnt like me really says alot about men. This pathetic pattern runs rampantly. I was professional, I never hit the guy, and he doesnt know me, so telling people you "dont like me" behind my back on set is pathetic. He clearly didnt like that I got the role where I kiss the girl. Well if you didnt look like the sperm of Stevo from Jackass, perhaps you'd have that honor fishface. Everyone else did like me and this frog headed fool didnt have the courage to criticize my fake punches to me directly. Pathetic.
I despise men, I'm vindyktive. From my childhood to the military I've been fighting them. In my punk band they did kind of lay off, but even after, men who I trusted as friends just have tried to put me down, and create this hostile, immature, and insulting environment. I guess this started with my first stepfather and has never let up. I have a few male friends I can gain a masculine balance being around. So many of these lame fuckin dudes just pass out on the couch watching TV. They just wanna watch TV??? You keep doing that, and those of us with passion and creativity will attempt to fill the void. Also briefly touching on this, all these weight lifting jock monsters were sitting here trying to assrape girls while myself and 1% of the male population were at war. You were partying while we were being men, some of us were even honorable warriors. So fuck you. Go spray on some axe and Im just gonna learn krav maga so when you funny little heathens think youre going to hurt me I will undoubtedly castrate you bare handed, like Sonny Chiba. I have turned the other cheek for too long and that time is over. If bloody in a ditch is how you wanna be, I have enough training already to do that, but it's time to fine tune it. Sadly our society isnt neither rational or peaceful, or you just hate me cuz I am. I cant hang with many gay dudes either cuz I dont want stubbly blowjobs, nor to be sexually harassed constantly after explaining to them I love the pussy they fear haha I do have a few chill and supportive queer artist friends that dont spew verbal filth at me constantly.
Women have always been loyal and wonderful to me. This varies in different degrees, but I am definitely better with feminine energy. I can feel even more now. I want a band with women, I admire their power when they rock. I want the gentile touch, I want the magical whisper that soothes me when I want to smash a guy's face. The way men and women express art is beautiful. The collection of female surrealist art that was temporarily at LACMA brought me to tears. Women encourage me to be rad. When I was 11 my grandmother was an angel who liberated me from a house of drunken violence and raised me. When I was gonna throw my guitar in a lake and stop playing music, my dear sweet sisters stopped me. Why did I even write a song? because I loved you. When I feel like something Im gonna wear will draw negative attention, I know a woman would wear it and be cute and confident so I go for it with pride. You beautiful, almost perfect creatures, I love you, you have saved me. I believe in your intuition and I believe in your power to save this world, but it's your responsibility not to become drunk with power, and to stop cheering on the brutality of man. I dream for it all to be handed over to women and we work together in some kind of harmony. We are all flawed, mortal homo sapiens, but I have seen much more integrity in women, and they are my guide. I understand, I forgive, I believe.