awen:
If you see fireworks tonight it's cuz I put a match in Simons gas tank 
awen:
is it hot out or juss me.... 
somedays i wonder why i get out of bed 
i feel the need to get drunk
i feel the need to get drunk
awen:
I want to be more than drunk...I want to fly away for a few days..... 
awen:
ah, but the consequences of 'flying free' may be more than Im willing to suffer 
awen:
hi.....
awen:
haven't had much chance to burrow yet ...people needed me....once they can take care of themselves I will hide, and I have to remember to turn off my phone...
I still feel like driving a sharp object thru my flesh sumwhere.....hmmmm I wanted a proffesional needle tho.....we'll see
mayhaps I'll dye my hair....
I still feel like driving a sharp object thru my flesh sumwhere.....hmmmm I wanted a proffesional needle tho.....we'll see
mayhaps I'll dye my hair....
It is a night of blood, a song of death,
wolves vent their howls. The thristing one
awakes.
Evil shrouds her pale form,
a lurking wrath.
Her raven hair cascades over
pale and tragic shoulders, and her
full crimson lips part slightly, to taste the
blood streaming from the
pale flesh beneath her.
Now a night of taking,
I hunger.
wolves vent their howls. The thristing one
awakes.
Evil shrouds her pale form,
a lurking wrath.
Her raven hair cascades over
pale and tragic shoulders, and her
full crimson lips part slightly, to taste the
blood streaming from the
pale flesh beneath her.
Now a night of taking,
I hunger.
Life is pain
life is sorrow
life is full of misery
life is full of despair
life is full of anquish
why do we bother
life is sorrow
life is full of misery
life is full of despair
life is full of anquish
why do we bother
awen:
because there's sum good stuff too???? 
awen:
See!! Good stuff like raises!!! Congrats! (you lush ) Be sure to save me a taste of Midori!!! And Happy Canada Day!!!
Gonna have me a nice long nap now yay!!
) Be sure to save me a taste of Midori!!! And Happy Canada Day!!!
Gonna have me a nice long nap now yay!!
what have you done?
a haze of misery as memories diminish.
once we savored wonder,
untainted and innocent,
but your desire vanished.
a deadened cloud of memory -
thoughts follow memory, follow darkness,
love forgotten.
in a haze of sorrow,
i see you.
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the night falls with a silent sigh, lost are we.
the salvation for which you pine
flares once, then dies,
swallowed...
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a haze of misery as memories diminish.
once we savored wonder,
untainted and innocent,
but your desire vanished.
a deadened cloud of memory -
thoughts follow memory, follow darkness,
love forgotten.
in a haze of sorrow,
i see you.
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the night falls with a silent sigh, lost are we.
the salvation for which you pine
flares once, then dies,
swallowed...
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demonika:
wow im sorry! that is harsh. 
The night falls in a heavy, suffocating cloak, cold and alone are we.
the emotion for which you sacrifice yourself
flares once, then dies,
devoured by the abyss.
all hope must sicken and die.
Your soul thrives no more.
how could you fail to believe?
lost souls surround us, crying,
sanctuary.
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What have you taken away?
a dark black shadowy cloud of misery as...
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the emotion for which you sacrifice yourself
flares once, then dies,
devoured by the abyss.
all hope must sicken and die.
Your soul thrives no more.
how could you fail to believe?
lost souls surround us, crying,
sanctuary.
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What have you taken away?
a dark black shadowy cloud of misery as...
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awen:
sorry can spell neither...all motor skills are stifled and brain is shutting down.....
awen:
'CANT'....SEE.....'CANT' TYPE ...ACK SOO OO HARD TOOO CONNCENTRATEEEE COUGH SPUTTRRRR ...SOOOO ICHY...ACK ACK KKKK....I THINK MOST PEOPLE ARE BLOOD SUCKING NEEDLE NOSED BUGS.....NOT YOU AND A FEW OTHERS.. YOU'RE FURRY CUTE SPIDERS THAT KILL THE EVIL BUGS......K....GOING NOW....I LOVE JACK HAMMERS...!!!!!! MAYBE THEY'LL LET ME BORROW THEIRS TO PLAY WITH TO SQUASH THE BUGS...YA KILL BUGS WITH JACK HAMMERS.....OPPS GOTTA GO AGAIN.... LATERS!!!
LATERS!!!It is a night of sorrow, a song of ethereal pain,
wolves vent their howls. The immortal one
awakes.
Death shrouds her pale form,
an eternal agony.
Her raven hair cascades over
pale and delicate shoulders, and her
full blood red lips part slightly, to taste the
darkness streaming from the
pale flesh beneath her.
Now a night of taking,
I hunger.
wolves vent their howls. The immortal one
awakes.
Death shrouds her pale form,
an eternal agony.
Her raven hair cascades over
pale and delicate shoulders, and her
full blood red lips part slightly, to taste the
darkness streaming from the
pale flesh beneath her.
Now a night of taking,
I hunger.
awen:
K, the last 2 journals are awsome...... these are the dark thoughts I find strange comfort in...to be alone is painful but less painful than all the other pain life brings....its a sweet comforting biterness...one to which I look forward the week after this. Im going to be a recluse for awhile. I miss it. I miss being alone, and quiet and still..... and I want to paint her...who has she bitten? mayhaps a redhead equally as pale, almost as mysterious..no longer to be in pain, no longer to be human...ooo and just a few freckles upon her now bluish cheeks....
[Edited on Jun 27, 2005 9:19AM]
[Edited on Jun 27, 2005 9:19AM]
Life is pain
Life is only pain
Where all taught about happy fairytales ends
but there is only darkness
dark depressing loneliness
that bets at your soul
Shallow life
drowning alone for air
coldness creeps over my paleskin
there is sadness so deep it pulls me down
happeness dies in the deep dark sea
Life is only pain
Where all taught about happy fairytales ends
but there is only darkness
dark depressing loneliness
that bets at your soul
Shallow life
drowning alone for air
coldness creeps over my paleskin
there is sadness so deep it pulls me down
happeness dies in the deep dark sea
oh why oh why must it rain so much????
awen:
because of my lucky snowflake pendant I put it on yesterday to take the heat away
I put it on yesterday to take the heat away