started reading "trout fishing in america" by richard brautigan. i think it's affected my thinking (is such a thought possible?).
i've been feeling more disjointed, inspired and despairing. maybe it's all the chocolate.
i'm pretty sober for how fucked up i feel. i've quit cigarettes, pot, alcohol and almost quit coffee. not even thinking aobut quitting the cacao, hwever.
and dude. sobriety is wierd.
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i've been feeling more disjointed, inspired and despairing. maybe it's all the chocolate.
i'm pretty sober for how fucked up i feel. i've quit cigarettes, pot, alcohol and almost quit coffee. not even thinking aobut quitting the cacao, hwever.
and dude. sobriety is wierd.
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asreal1:
One time when I smoked salvia I saw the universe turn into 19th century schematics, full of wheels and cogs and vectors, all labelled in a script I couldn't read. It was immensely frustrating but amazing at the same time.
waldo_____:
Personally I'd integrate the greenhouse from the start. Or at least, make sure it's all set up for that.
i dreamt i was leading a team of super-powered mutants against a team of evil superpowered mutants, in a race for world domination.
yeah, that's right. we wanted the world, too.
yeah, that's right. we wanted the world, too.
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thefreak:
Dirty muties!
-TM
-TM
lordkalkin:
If nothing else, you're at least not dreaming like a pussy.
at the aquarium yesterday, i started to strongly identify with the spider crab, a beautifull monster clearly driven insane by the boredom of captivity.
i haven't really gotten over it yet.
i haven't really gotten over it yet.
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dalila:
thanks for your comment! 
thatwhichisnot:
Have you ever met a sky lizard? You can find them just by looking around in the sky. It's made of them. An altered state of mind seems to help. One almost ate me once, but I'm too fast and a convenient nearby cow distracted it.
well, crap.
now i have to decide whether to attend a glitterati party full of pretty semi-strangers, or a drunken forest festival of friends.
yarp, i complain either way.
now i have to decide whether to attend a glitterati party full of pretty semi-strangers, or a drunken forest festival of friends.
yarp, i complain either way.
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waldo_____:
ah, why do you think humanists are fucked up?
fatality:
Glitteratti sounds fun!
well, we ALMOST made it to prom this year... but as everybody who's anybody already knows - prom was moved to ..ew.. vegas... and will, i'm personally quite sure, be an event replete with professional videographers and event staff, thus to exploit our edgey, digerati, pretty-people personae for the furtherment of the the evil sg empire's bank account.
the forthcoming dvd, soon to be advertised...
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the forthcoming dvd, soon to be advertised...
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thefreak:
You West Coast kids and your cool stuff to do. 
-TM
-TM
thefreak:
Oh wait, you're East Coast.
Whoops!
-TM
Whoops!
-TM
today i purchased 20.18 acres of the most perfectest land ever imaginable.
the feeling is only comparable to having a baby. like you want to do a dance and/or have a nervous breakdown.
the feeling is only comparable to having a baby. like you want to do a dance and/or have a nervous breakdown.
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waldo_____:
Wow.
lordkalkin:
I've had my ULC ordination since 1999, so I'm good on that front. Time to start an ayahuasca church, I guess.
On the other thing, I've had a bitch of a time getting a really strong experience out of saliva. The first few times, using leaves, it just felt kinda like pot, but weaker. Then I got an extract (8x, I think), and that seemed to have a bit more of an effect, but still nothing actually intense. I finally put myself in a dark room, with no music, took about four massive bong hits and had what I would describe as an intense exeperience. I felt like I had turned to stone, but sweat dripping down my face felt sharp, like knives (not unpleasant oddly enough). However, as soon as I opened my eyes, it mostly went away and I just had that sorta-like-pot feeling again.
I didn't get identity dissolution or even open-eye visuals until trying shrooms or LSD.
On the other thing, I've had a bitch of a time getting a really strong experience out of saliva. The first few times, using leaves, it just felt kinda like pot, but weaker. Then I got an extract (8x, I think), and that seemed to have a bit more of an effect, but still nothing actually intense. I finally put myself in a dark room, with no music, took about four massive bong hits and had what I would describe as an intense exeperience. I felt like I had turned to stone, but sweat dripping down my face felt sharp, like knives (not unpleasant oddly enough). However, as soon as I opened my eyes, it mostly went away and I just had that sorta-like-pot feeling again.
I didn't get identity dissolution or even open-eye visuals until trying shrooms or LSD.
coffee and chaos, screaming babies, kettles, etc, the occasional harpy.
i get lost in my head and go to the computer - i resolve instead to spend more time outside, everything budding, flowering, fruiting, plenty to watch, just to get clear.
my mind is divided now between the conference center we're building, a buisness proposal somone has involved me with, the land i'm trying to...
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i get lost in my head and go to the computer - i resolve instead to spend more time outside, everything budding, flowering, fruiting, plenty to watch, just to get clear.
my mind is divided now between the conference center we're building, a buisness proposal somone has involved me with, the land i'm trying to...
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flux:
you=horselover fat
ringleader:
Life is a general shit sandwich..now take a bite.
back home, jacktown, 39202.
visiting the crazies and the families.
watching spring flower, one by one. pussy willow, daffodil, forsythia, crocus, quince, maple, etc.
yeah, i'm hungover.
visiting the crazies and the families.
watching spring flower, one by one. pussy willow, daffodil, forsythia, crocus, quince, maple, etc.
yeah, i'm hungover.
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ringleader:
Fucking Californians..
krass_of_nod:
your crazies and your family are not the same people???? 
Mine are!!!!
Mine are!!!!
the past few days have left me aching.
can't remember what i did.
feelin good feelin great how are you.
i need a party. a real party.
can't remember what i did.
feelin good feelin great how are you.
i need a party. a real party.
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ringleader:
I need a real party too. I haven't had one of those in far too long..
I know, I know. I can't just pull those kinda enteries outta my hat.....but I'll work on coming up with something worthwhile..
I know, I know. I can't just pull those kinda enteries outta my hat.....but I'll work on coming up with something worthwhile..
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REavid Lerner
Died of a heroin overdose in the late-90s? Yeah, he reminds me of me too.
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avid Lerner
Died of a heroin overdose in the late-90s? Yeah, he reminds me of me too.
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-TM