A depression has set in over the past few days that feels like a combination of when you have a bad report card and breaking curfew mixed.
That sort of sick "oh man I'm fucked feeling..".
I've had that all day today and yesterday.
I was so positive about changing just last week, that didn't seem to last.
I veer between thinking if I cleaned up it would fix everything and who gives a shit if I clean up or not I have no one to answer to.I guess you can say I'm on a "bi-polar coaster" HAW!
Get it?
See because it's like
Yeah.
I am out of Nyquil or any kind of sleep aid so now I will be up till 7 or 8 AM at which time I will finally drift off and wake up to my phone alarm time of 11:45.
This will give me three hours and change (same as last night) and I will spend the day as a zombie and give a lackluster performance at rehearsal.
I really need to get some Tylenol PM tomorrow.
And nail clippers.
That sort of sick "oh man I'm fucked feeling..".
I've had that all day today and yesterday.
I was so positive about changing just last week, that didn't seem to last.
I veer between thinking if I cleaned up it would fix everything and who gives a shit if I clean up or not I have no one to answer to.I guess you can say I'm on a "bi-polar coaster" HAW!
Get it?
See because it's like
Yeah.
I am out of Nyquil or any kind of sleep aid so now I will be up till 7 or 8 AM at which time I will finally drift off and wake up to my phone alarm time of 11:45.
This will give me three hours and change (same as last night) and I will spend the day as a zombie and give a lackluster performance at rehearsal.
I really need to get some Tylenol PM tomorrow.
And nail clippers.
dbot:
melatonin or valerian - natural sleep aids, you won't be groggy in the morning.