piperluv

My father hung himself 2 weeks into my 21st year of life. This was 11 years ago come August. And I'm still angry as FUCK . Someone very very close to me said (and these are the exact words) "how in the world can you still be angry, it's been years. Get over it." This hurt because it's so damn easy for someone else to make this statement when they have NO idea what I saw on that day and continue to see when I try to envoke any memory of my father. That is the last and only real memory I have of him....I can't get the fucker out of my head. It's an everyday occurance. How do I heal?
Some days I feel alien and that I'm living outside of myself.

I apologize for pissing and moaning about this. But this is my only outlet.

Now I'll smoke a cigarette!