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She's the only one for which the reality of her is better than any fantasy I could ever dream.

I want to still be in love with her the way I was. I want her to be the one, but I see that it may not be the case. And when I see us not together like that it's ok because I do love her. It is a pure love. But what flavor of love? I could not say. Nor could I really care.

I'm just glad she's back in my life and whatever happens I want her in my life. I don't care if we stay friends forever and I go into eternity having never kissed her. As long as we are friends I shall ask no more of her, of me, or of any deity.

I do not deserve her friendship, I do not deserve having her back in my life. And may that be all the motivation I need to get me to my next phase in life.

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