pinkpunk13

My friend's surgery went pretty good.
Lots of pain and lots of drugs but he's tough,so he's staying as strong as possible.
I turned down work two days to help him out,which really caused me some problems with my retarded parents but fuck it. I needed to do this.
He needed someone to be there for him during and after his surgery,so I stepped up like I'd promised and was the only one that really could.
It's been a lot harder then I thought it'd be though,but it's not his fault at all and I'll be feeling healthy and getting sleep soon enough.I just wish I was bigger/stronger,had more money and a bunch of other things so I could be doing it better,but I guess nobody's perfect and I can't impress everyone.
He's not asking me to do so though so that's good,he wouldn't do that.
Hmm too much personal shit,ttyl,I feel sick and hungry cuz I had to fucking go to work tonight too and I'm crashing,I need a nap.
ttyl byes
Jax

Right now,I feel dumb,I keep trying to be helpful as I can for everyone and calm and all that but it doesn't seem to be going well.
It's like everything will be going fine then I'll feel like I am or maybe actually am being accused of something from my friends/family and I'll put up my defenses then it will escalade into a tiff from nothing,it's retarded.
I'm also sick so It's even more annoying cuz I'm all messed on drugs and sleepy and still trying to be normal lol
hmm I'm in a stupid mood where I just want to be spoiled or pampered or whatever,not even money wise just whatever.
ttyl