pinkpunk13

Heyo!
Guess what I've been being a bad girl
I've Ignored two full shifts these past two days
(I'm on call for my job)
This is SOOO not like me
But I really didn't want to work!!!!
Plus the messages that they left on my voicemail
and home answering machine were kind of rude.
I need the money so I probably should be picking up the phone or calling back but hey I need this down time in order to clear my mind.
They can't even bitch at me
Well they probably will but they shouldn't!
They only called me like an hour before they wanted me in for both shifts and they called my home phone number DESPITE being told not to do so then they didn't call my cell at all until like 20 minutes before the shifts,all desperate.
Oh well,Whatever!
LOL

Hmm I'm in a rather good mood right now.
I'm feeling dorky too so here goes some quotes!
These mean something to me right now.

First: I have this movie that I totally love it's Called
"The Princess Bride"
NOT THE PRINCESS DIARIES!!!!
it's all action and lovey dovey and the quote
I Love is...

"Death cannot stop true love"

The meaning in the movie is really cute!
but right now for me,I'm thinking positively
So I'm feeling that if people have true love
(Like Real True Love not just being needy for each other so you create inside your mind this illusion/dillusion of being in Love so harsh)
that not just death cannot stop True Love
but like absolutely fucking nothing can stop True Love because it's a force not to be reckoned with!
Fuck with it and it'll fuck with you most likely twice as hard! SERIOUSLY!!!
Just let it fucking work it's magic(with your wisdom helping it out though because True Love still needs to be nurtured despite being so strong)
I think that despite some true loves not working for whatever silly reasons,crossed wires,fuck ups whatever etc. That the strength of true love should generally rip its path right through and into staying in your life forever,or at least staying in your heart and throught your memories
Hmm I think I'm gotten a lil redundant in this entry and feel like I'm talking crazy talk but oh well
Anywhoo I fucked with Love's path last week
In my Opinion (despite being so Young)
TRUE LOVE'S Path
I Fucked up My Path of True Love and It fucked with me back
( like my aforementioned(sp?) thought of fuck with Love
and it will fuck with you )
It fucked me back for sure
My love was crashing and burning due to confusion my friends,me,etc.
Anywhoo,Oh ya that movie has another good quote it's...
"As You Wish",the boy in the movie is his Love's servant and does everythign she says when she asks by telling her "As You Wish" which later on means I Love You secretly then openly to each other but anywhoo back to my original points.
My fucking with Love made me fuck up my Love and fuck with my Love's emotions,Love's power fucked us up,worse on his side then mine which was like greatly my fault,I hurt him so bad,I was under the influence of other's words but still my fault because I should have thought more about my Baby
Anywhoo Long story short,well shorter,
We talked and our shit is better and I'm happy and hey I think that it may work out well in the future.
I hadn't noticed how much I meant to him because we both weren't totally showing it.

Hmm I feel so bad because I turned my back on him
which I think despite some other stupid things that I've done this may be the stupidest because I tried to remove him for my life which I sooo totally do not want,It's so not like me to want him away from me in any ways.

He's never turned his back on me before despite some of our problems.He's incredibly wonderful for and like that.
He may be turning his back on me soon because he saw me in a fake happiness when he was out of my week last week but it was sooo fake,and he doesn't want to be dampering that happiness he thought I had when he was gone but he has to understand that I'm happiest WITH him and I don't just mean dating I just anywhere with him doing anything
OR doing Nothing for that matter!,we stayed in bed for about 16 hours yesterday,all day and it was fucking fun and relaxing,even though I kept talking , I tend to be one of those people that can't handle the same person for an hour let alone 16 of them,Like I love to do with this man.

If he walks away from me anytime within the future
I don't want to sound fucked up but I'm not giving up on us.
I don't mean I'm going to try to force him into being with me or anything but I am sooo going to pursue for him,like I should've been doing all along not running!
But I didn't think he wanted me cuz we were both hiding our feelings.
Hmm he's so worth fighting for,for the rest of eternity
He's sooooooo incredible !Seriously!
Goddamn I'm being scary but eh
Hmm I don't know if he's going to like me yammering about him on here and some of my other friends here will think I'm a wee bit nuts too but whatever
Seriously I'm In Love
I LOVE HIM!
I get scared to tell him to his face but I want to say it here,not cuz I'm bragging or that I feel it's anyone's business or whatever but I just have to get it off my chest.
This is a good vent place too because everyone is awesome.
I am back into believing in soul mates
He just feels soooooo right.
Hmm I'm getting tired so I'm going to not make this much longer,maybe it'll be a two parter.

Another quote is...
Death from above 1979's song lyrice from romantic rights.
I don't need you,I want you!
I don't totally need him,nobody really needs anyone but themselves if they are strong like we all should be
So I don't need him but oh do I want him.
I used to think that he was my everything,like he was the cake,but he's not the cake
Because I don't think it's a wise idea to have one thing as your everything because if you lose that then you feel like you've lost your world but he definitely is the icing on my cake,oh sweet icing,he brightens up my day,fuck he brightens up my life.He makes my happy,happiest.
Hmm I think that's enough for now,anyone want to strangle silly lil me?
lol
Love You All
Love Him Most
Bye for now
xoxoxoxoxoxo
Jax/PinkPunk13



Here I am again below my first journal

I don't want to post a new journal,so I'm adding on to this one despite the fact that nobody will notice.
I was woken up today thinking that my ex boyfriend was whistling at me(NOT whistling in a mean way) from outside my window,I was incorrect though there was just some bird that sounded exactly like his whistle.Agh stupid bird!LOL

Then my friend called one second after this and has now created me having a huge desire to go to the near top of Grouse Mountain,Where apparently there are white bears,restaurants,shops and axe throwers.
I think this sounds like she's taken too much acid or shrooms AGAIN but I'd like if it was true.Who wants to find out with me?
Party in Vancouver on A mountain,come on you know you wanna?
Peace Out A-Town,That's right you heard me right!


MORE CONTINUATION!!!!!

I'm soo bloody fucking nervous,over/for another person.
A close friend of mine
sonofapunk is getting surgery tomorrow:S
I hope everything goes well
I don't think I'll get to know until sometime around tuesday
hmm,I bet it will,knock on wood.( I actually did lol)
No big worries though,I told him I wished him luck and he's important and all that before surgery jazz,he seems rather calm and all.
talk to y'all laters