Wednesday Oct 03, 2007

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What a difference a month makes.

I have some how ended up at one of the lowest points i've reached. Its a strange feeling for me as i'm a strong believer that things happen for a reason and things work themselves out in the end. Problem is, i've never had so many things go wrong all at once, and i feel completely helpless and lost.

September. The month started off with me finally getting an amazing tattoo, i love it so much, and i go back in a week and a half to get it finished.
on the 8th, beach camping, had a great time, swimming in the sea is so relaxing.... even with nudists perving on us!

14th, 15th and 16th I was back in bath.... thats when it starts to go down hill... to cut a long story short, my house mate dumped his girlfriend, and told her he'd cheated on her. (turns out only coz he kinda had to) but, as i found out that weekend, they'd decided to give it another go. that bugged me anyway, coz i know he's cheated on her loads....
But Bath was still lovely, and i had a good weekend.

Ok, so this is where i start to rant and ramble. Saturday 22nd. The weekend before the last week of filming. the busiest, most costume heavy week in the whole 15 weeks i was there. I had a really nice day in Camden, bought a nice dress for the wrap party.... Sunday morning woke up at about 7.30 and there was already a missed call and message from Sash, Tim's (my house mate) girlfriend. the message had been sent at 4.30am said: 'yeah, at Tim's, and his other girlfriend has turned up.' I was a bit confused, so i called her.

U don't have to read this....

SPOILERS! (Click to view)

at 3.30am a girl i know now as freya from bristol, broke down my flat door, pissed out of her skull..... just because she wanted to see Tim.... she had not other reason. This was his 'other girlfriend' so as u can imagine it all kicked off a bit! Topped by the fact this 'lovely' girl had got a taxi from bristol and refused to pay for it, so the taxi guy called the police. they came and went. After this, the girl goes on to throw stuff out the window, smashes bottles against the wall, at somepoint Sash cuts her foot on the glass... so theres blood. Tim left, he couldn't handle the girl, she was attacking him. left our flat. so, Sash took the girl home with her? back to bristol. I know? i have no idea. and thats where i kinda join the story. this psycho is asleep in Sash's house and she doesn't know wot to do.
It turns out the girl wouldn't leave unless she had her bag... which she had left in the flat in bath. so sash agreed to take her to meet tim and pick it up.
on the way over they spoke... he'd been seing this girl for 3 months??? and sash didn't notice? the girl had been staying at our flat for 3 or 4 nights at a time??? He's a cunt.... the girl knew nothing about sash...

so, the girl jumps out of the car and follows tim to work, she doesn't remember much of the night before, but is angry, she spends the day kicking the door of Tim's work and shouting abuse in his face..... which he did deserve to a degree.
Sash went back to bristol. and eventually the girl disappeared.

I called Tim later to see how he was, not that i had any sympathy for him....... he left work at 5 and was meeting sash, she wanted some answers... poor girl, she'll never get them, i don't even think he know's wot he's doing.

So they have their meeting.

*in the mean time, i got so stressed with the girl breaking in and smashing my flat up, with my kittens hiding in the corner scared shitless, that i had to get out, and away, so Iannnnnn kindly said i could let myself into his..... 2 hours on sunday trains, but as it had all started early i got there at about 2. i just sat in the garden while he pottered in the garden.
We decided to go for a wander in the evening, thats when i got a call from Tim, he had come back from meeting Sash and all our lights were on..... he wanted advice...... I told him to call the police, which he did.
Freya had broken in again, smashed more stuff, written on our worktops, then drank herself into a stupor on out sofa. The police took her away



So, not only did i have the craziest week at work, i spent the whole time worrying about the flat, the kittens.. with calls from Tim every night as he was entering the flat, just in case she, or her mates were waiting for him. plus my impending joblessness.....

Now I'm back in Bath, i was ment to be spending the week with my family, relaxing after 15 harecore weeks, but instead i'm trying to deal with not feeling safe on comfortable in my own home, i have no job, and no clue wot i'm ment to do next..... Tim wants to move.... to cornwall or devon.... I can't do that, its gorgeous down there but its just too far to get back to see my family.

To top it off Sash and Tim..... why would they even concider giving it another go? But he wants to move 4 hours away?? he's a cock when it comes to girls................ I actually screamed in his face...... i might just tell her all the stuff i know, that i kept secret for him.. for all the good it'll do?

I said as this was happening i needed a holiday..... but hey no-one has any money to spare for a holiday with me.........

i don't even know why i bother sometimes..... i try to give out so much, make an effort, as much as i can, but it all gets thrown back in my face, well, actually it doesn't because that would mean at least i got something back.....

i am not happy.

People are cunts.
I have had enough, i just want to live in a cave with the kittens....

VIEW 4 of 4 COMMENTS
saffa:
oh heck!!! i hope you get everything sorted out, especialy with a place to stay and a job shocked
hang in there my friend, somehting better will come of it im sure smile
firemonkey:
Aw hon, that sounds proper shite, I'm so sorry. You should never have left london. It's fun here, and you and I could go out drinking. Boo hiss.
So, when you returning to the big smoke? It'd be great to see you. Tattoo convention? Still have to tell people about my birthday.
Sending you big hugs,
D xxx
Only just got back from Italy yesterday, bloody amazing, but I'll tell you all about it later

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