WARNING----Sadness
Its 4 AM and I just got home from the Emergency Vet Clinic. I spent $94 to have Sydney put to sleep, because I couldn't bear the thought of how much pain/suffering she might be going through.
I don't know if I ever mentioned, but one of my 2 ferrets, Sydney, was diagnosed with Lymphoma. I had to give her chemotherapy and steroids this past month. I went to give them water/food for the night-realized Syd wasn't around. Shook the hammock they sleep in, and thought she was missing. It didn't even feel like she was in it. I got up and looked-she was there....eyes barely open, trying to lift her head to look at me. I talked to her, petted her,...she stayed in the same spot. I pulled her out from the cover, and still she laid. Meanwhile, her counterpart, Chloe, was hopping all over the place, trying to get out of the cage, the same thing Syd would normally have been doing. I started crying, told Becky I had to have her put to sleep. I picked her up-skin and bones. Her ribs were showing. Not but a few days ago I picked her up, and said she was skinny-but she was probably twice the size then, than she was tonight. She could barely breathe. I feel so bad putting her down. I didn't even have her examined. Is that mean? Hell, I didn't put her in an animal carrier on the way to the vet. She curled up and slept in my arms the whole way there. She tried to look out the windows when we first got in the car, but I reckon that used up all her strength.
I loved my Sydney, and I hope she felt like she had a good life.
Its 4 AM and I just got home from the Emergency Vet Clinic. I spent $94 to have Sydney put to sleep, because I couldn't bear the thought of how much pain/suffering she might be going through.
I don't know if I ever mentioned, but one of my 2 ferrets, Sydney, was diagnosed with Lymphoma. I had to give her chemotherapy and steroids this past month. I went to give them water/food for the night-realized Syd wasn't around. Shook the hammock they sleep in, and thought she was missing. It didn't even feel like she was in it. I got up and looked-she was there....eyes barely open, trying to lift her head to look at me. I talked to her, petted her,...she stayed in the same spot. I pulled her out from the cover, and still she laid. Meanwhile, her counterpart, Chloe, was hopping all over the place, trying to get out of the cage, the same thing Syd would normally have been doing. I started crying, told Becky I had to have her put to sleep. I picked her up-skin and bones. Her ribs were showing. Not but a few days ago I picked her up, and said she was skinny-but she was probably twice the size then, than she was tonight. She could barely breathe. I feel so bad putting her down. I didn't even have her examined. Is that mean? Hell, I didn't put her in an animal carrier on the way to the vet. She curled up and slept in my arms the whole way there. She tried to look out the windows when we first got in the car, but I reckon that used up all her strength.
I loved my Sydney, and I hope she felt like she had a good life.
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this makes me so sad just thinking about it. my mom put to sleep my cat because she was "pooping on her carpet"
It's funny (well, maybe not so funny) that I felt more sorrow over her death then many relatives I've lost. I'm not sure if that makes me a crappy person or not. But alas, I was already a crappy person anyway!
i hope you and chloe feel better