I think I'm ok. 
At least, for now.
I keep telling myself that he is going back to her. That way, when he breaks the news to me, I won't cry. I can be a bitch. I can tell him that our entire relationship has been a lie, and I will be deleting every single text message he ever sent me, because its all bullshit. I WILL be a bitch. He has seen me cry enough. No more.
Yesterday was hard, not talking to him, not texting him, especially when I know he went to court, and I was dying to know what happened. Today was easy. I haven't even been tempted to send him a text. I see myself as moving on. Maybe I want him to go back to her, so I can put all this bullshit behind me, and find someone who WILL be devoted to me, and only me.
And deep down, I know that if he goes back to her, he will only be miserable. You can only tolerate being jerked around for so long until you snap. And apparently she has his balls in a vice-grip.
I went to the gym tonight. I want my ass to look fabulous, if only for revenge. He always complimented it, so when it looks 10x better, and its not HIS anymore....I will have the last laugh. I love being a bitch!
At least, for now.
I keep telling myself that he is going back to her. That way, when he breaks the news to me, I won't cry. I can be a bitch. I can tell him that our entire relationship has been a lie, and I will be deleting every single text message he ever sent me, because its all bullshit. I WILL be a bitch. He has seen me cry enough. No more.
Yesterday was hard, not talking to him, not texting him, especially when I know he went to court, and I was dying to know what happened. Today was easy. I haven't even been tempted to send him a text. I see myself as moving on. Maybe I want him to go back to her, so I can put all this bullshit behind me, and find someone who WILL be devoted to me, and only me.
And deep down, I know that if he goes back to her, he will only be miserable. You can only tolerate being jerked around for so long until you snap. And apparently she has his balls in a vice-grip.
I went to the gym tonight. I want my ass to look fabulous, if only for revenge.
He always complimented it, so when it looks 10x better, and its not HIS anymore....I will have the last laugh. I love being a bitch!
i swear you HAVE to be one of the strongest woman ive ever met...thats even a turn on to me!
do ya still have my # ?
I'm really nervous though. I haven't gotten a response from him yet (though I don't expect one for a while because we both have class and such all day) and I want it all to work out.
*nervous laugh*