I luv all my SG peeps--you guys fucking rock! 
The drama--even though she has a restraining order, she insists on talking to HIM--I told him to call the cops, he refuses. She's in a tough spot and now she needs help, cause her mom is holding her daughter away from her. Yeah. Whatever. He claims he didn't help her, and that he's still going through with the divorce.....we'll see. The fact that he is still talking to her, even with the restraining order, pisses me off. Cause if he makes her mad, she'll fuckin' hold that against him in court.
I decided today that I'm OK with taking a "break". He needs time/space to deal with all this bullshit, and either A-go through with it, or B-chickenshit out, and go back to her. Whichever he decides, I'll have to deal with. Until then, I'm not worrying about his situation (too much). And I told him I will TRY MY HARDEST to not pile more bullshit on him. (I threw my cellphone at a concrete wall last night while I was talking to him, cause I was so pissed that he hadn't talked to me all damn night). He asked what I was so angry at---I told him at myself-for putting myself in the situation, at him-for walking away from me in the current situation, and at her-for all the fucking bullshit she piles on him, and the way she makes him miserable. But, in having that outburst, and talking to a co-worker, I decided I'm going to try really hard to keep the faith that he WON'T go back to her, and be the quiet, solid rock that he needs me to be right now. And if all goes well, he won't end up hating me when this is all said and done.
Court date for the restraining order is Tuesday. Wah-fucking-hoo.
I think I'm gonna try and plan a trip to Vegas, AND I'm finally gonna call Eric up in Dayton and get some new INK! I kinda want some new piercings too, but I have no idea what ever happened to Meg. 
Gary Allan Lyrics--- Did I mention his new CD FUCKING ROCKS?!?!! HEARTBREAK AND MISERY, HELL YEAH!
"Forgive me, if I had any part
If I ever broke your heart in two-
And forgive me for what I didn't know,
For what I didn't say or do.
And God, forgive me as well-
Cause I just got back from Hell..."
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"Life ain't always beautiful,
Sometimes its just plain hard.
Life can knock you down,
It can break your heart.
Life ain't always beautiful,
You think you're on your way.
Its just a dead end road,
At the end of the day.
But the struggles make you stronger,
And the changes make you wise.
And happiness has its own way-
of taking its sweet time.
No life ain't always beautiful,
Tears will fall sometimes,
Life ain't always beautiful
But its a beautiful ride.
Life ain't always beautiful
Somedays I miss your smile
I get tired of walking
All these lonely miles
I wish for just one minute
I could see your pretty face
Guess I can dream
But life don't work that way
But the struggles make me stronger
And the changes make me wise
And happiness has its own way
of taking its sweet time
No life ain't always beautiful
But I know I'll be fine
Hey life ain't always beautiful
But its a beautiful ride
What a beautiful ride."
----------------------------------------------------------
"I guess somebody told you goodbye
In a million years I couldn't understand why.
What kind of fool
Didn't want you?
What kind of fool
Tore your heart in two?
What kind of fool
Didn't do everything he'd do
To hold on to you.
Whoever it was,
Who made you so blue
Never deserved
A woman like you..."
The drama--even though she has a restraining order, she insists on talking to HIM--I told him to call the cops, he refuses. She's in a tough spot and now she needs help, cause her mom is holding her daughter away from her. Yeah. Whatever. He claims he didn't help her, and that he's still going through with the divorce.....we'll see. The fact that he is still talking to her, even with the restraining order, pisses me off. Cause if he makes her mad, she'll fuckin' hold that against him in court.
I decided today that I'm OK with taking a "break". He needs time/space to deal with all this bullshit, and either A-go through with it, or B-chickenshit out, and go back to her. Whichever he decides, I'll have to deal with. Until then, I'm not worrying about his situation (too much). And I told him I will TRY MY HARDEST to not pile more bullshit on him. (I threw my cellphone at a concrete wall last night while I was talking to him, cause I was so pissed that he hadn't talked to me all damn night). He asked what I was so angry at---I told him at myself-for putting myself in the situation, at him-for walking away from me in the current situation, and at her-for all the fucking bullshit she piles on him, and the way she makes him miserable. But, in having that outburst, and talking to a co-worker, I decided I'm going to try really hard to keep the faith that he WON'T go back to her, and be the quiet, solid rock that he needs me to be right now. And if all goes well, he won't end up hating me when this is all said and done.
Court date for the restraining order is Tuesday. Wah-fucking-hoo.
I think I'm gonna try and plan a trip to Vegas, AND I'm finally gonna call Eric up in Dayton and get some new INK!
I kinda want some new piercings too, but I have no idea what ever happened to Meg.
Gary Allan Lyrics---
Did I mention his new CD FUCKING ROCKS?!?!! HEARTBREAK AND MISERY, HELL YEAH!
"Forgive me, if I had any part
If I ever broke your heart in two-
And forgive me for what I didn't know,
For what I didn't say or do.
And God, forgive me as well-
Cause I just got back from Hell..."
-----------------------------------------------------------
"Life ain't always beautiful,
Sometimes its just plain hard.
Life can knock you down,
It can break your heart.
Life ain't always beautiful,
You think you're on your way.
Its just a dead end road,
At the end of the day.
But the struggles make you stronger,
And the changes make you wise.
And happiness has its own way-
of taking its sweet time.
No life ain't always beautiful,
Tears will fall sometimes,
Life ain't always beautiful
But its a beautiful ride.
Life ain't always beautiful
Somedays I miss your smile
I get tired of walking
All these lonely miles
I wish for just one minute
I could see your pretty face
Guess I can dream
But life don't work that way
But the struggles make me stronger
And the changes make me wise
And happiness has its own way
of taking its sweet time
No life ain't always beautiful
But I know I'll be fine
Hey life ain't always beautiful
But its a beautiful ride
What a beautiful ride."
----------------------------------------------------------
"I guess somebody told you goodbye
In a million years I couldn't understand why.
What kind of fool
Didn't want you?
What kind of fool
Tore your heart in two?
What kind of fool
Didn't do everything he'd do
To hold on to you.
Whoever it was,
Who made you so blue
Never deserved
A woman like you..."
so you'll be in kettering on tuesday? i work till around 4 but if you're still gonna be around then we should get together. so hit me up & lemme know as it would be nice to see ya!