pinkfuckermeow

heatherbakapink (heatherbakapink) wrote,
@ 2005-08-23 08:25:00





Current mood: confused
Current music: Delirium "Silence"
Entry tags: one....... heather b. aka pink

"Whore"
I had a sinking feeling in my stomach today.... the kinda feeling that won't go away, no matter what you do, it follows you, makes you wish your life was thru! So why do i feel this way? Why must i contemplate on taking my own life? A way that forfeits the means of survival, i guess... What a MESS that i have become! What great tragedy has surrcome this life of mine... A WHORE to the pain, whatever i do is never enough... she's ruff, tuff and all FUCKED UP! From the outside looking in... and it seems so sweet but take a bite and you'll find a million maggots inside, tormented by my own mind...

I FEEL SO LOST... i lied, i'm not alright!!! You sold me a DREAM... WHY ME? I would have been better off being defeated by another means... TAINTED LOVE is all i know and a WHORE to the thought of more... All i've ever known is pain so HOW could expect anything more????

I HATE WHAT I'VE BECOME, I HATE KNOWING THAT I'M THE ONLY ONE THAT CAN CHANGE MY FATE........Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh........... Can you hear that???
..........silence............not a soul in sight, not one person can i find!!
Just me ALONE and everyone is home... sad.... i know... just leave me alone.... sadness... sorrow... pain... anguish... hurt... tormented... tainted... crazy... sick... bad... love... heartache............

***************************THE DEFINITON OF MY LIFE**************************