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This is a photo of me at 11 years old.
Unfortunately, when I look at the photos of this period, good memories do not come back to my mind, indeed, quite another.
It was the darkest time of my life in reality.

This was the time when I was invisible to almost everyone, a ghost.
No one wanted to be particularly close to me, as I was considered a nerd, ugly and unworthy of being presented "to friends".
The only times I was considered was just when I had to take the piss, for a whole series of reasons, from my physical appearance to the fact that I was considered a "little good" just for the simple fact that I went out with kids that other girls in my school liked etc etc

Obviously at the time most of the boys of my age didn't look at me because I was a toilet (and actually they were right) to all my letters "YOU WANT TO PUT WITH ME" the answer was always NO!
On the other hand, my female companions were already all very nice and well dressed .... I was a frog, with short hair, pimples and three-plus-size suits with an outpouring of epic ones. .. why should they "make friends"?

Childhood should be one of those moments where everything is beautiful, everything is carefree and everything is happy ... for me it was not so ... it was the period in which I felt most alone and does not happen in my life .

But do you know what? I would go back I wish everything was like this again!
It was the best lesson of all.

One day I got up and I said to myself "Giada but the fuck do you care about these people? Life is one and it's yours"

From that day the judgment of others no longer mattered to me!
From there I really started to live my adolescence to the fullest! I started dating who I wanted, dress like I wanted and behave the way I wanted!
Whispering in "my real being" to all those bigots and countrymen who had always judged me, I even began to take pleasure in hearing the negative comments that were made towards me ..... how many laughs about these comments that I do not tell you 🤣.

I have always been a creative person, exaggerated, maybe a bit self-centered, but without judgment towards others and always very positive.
Why should I deprive myself of my being .... due to the negative judgment of two villagers? Pfff.

Fortunately, the years have passed, I grew up and I took advantage of all the best sides of me in my favor.
Fifteen years later I give myself a big pat on the shoulder and I thank myself for having been strong and not letting myself be "turned off" or "conditioned" by the judgment of others.

To all the kids who are experiencing a similar situation I just want to say hold on and don't listen to those who don't accept you for who you are, stay away from envious, bad or retrograde people.
Do not try to indulge anyone in life who wants to change you.
Make your diversity and resourcefulness your strength!
One day you will grow and the wheel will turn ... and I assure you that it will be worth it.

Many years have passed, sometimes I still see those people around;
Some people say hello to me, some don't.
There were those who were so beautiful as a child and took the piss out of me for the physical aspect and now we can say that the appellative of "beautiful" can no longer be given to him.
There are those in middle school who answered NO to my love letters and now he writes to me "you are beautiful" in DM
Some people have always snubbed me and talked badly behind and today they are looking for advertisements from me ....
And then there are those who I have forgiven because we were kids at the time.

But anyway I have to say thanks to everyone from the first to the last!
For helping me bring out the real myself.

A colorful, creative, self-centered person who loves positive people, free from prejudice and only with the desire to enjoy life without regrets ❤

Thank you @missy @rambo @bloghomework