What i try to do when i'm depressed

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Hey beautiful land

Like i already said, i'm in a difficult phase, and its difficult to even jump off the bed to have a new day.

But we need to heal our soul by ourselves, and that's what i'm trying to do every day.

A few weekends ago i went to São Paulo to do my last set for the site. Was shot by @kalincamaki, so it will be awesome set for sure. I'll post previews when i have it.

How i'm just did this travel to do this last shoot, i saw some friends and it becomes to a fun weekend of photoshoots, drinks, weed and hamburguers.

It was amazing, like a therapy, my friends helped me by healing me with my fave things, they now how to cheer me up as always: modeling.

I Just saw that i love to pose, that i just needed this. I love modeling and pushing it away of my life its not the answer.

What i need to do its just try to separate modeling of a personal competition that i have.

"Oh maybe i'm Just to fat to this"

"Should i stop to modeling cause i never had a set with great votes?"

"Why i'm not enough?"

Well, these things had haunted me my entire life, my family are not proud of me, why did i graduate from college if i cant suceed? Boys dont want me as a girlfriend for 7 years, am i too fat, or ugly? The question is the same, in every corner of my life: "why i'm not enough ? " i just try too hard and everything i'm going to do i just put my soul on it.

Why i never get there?

I dont know, but i Just saw that modeling helped me, when i see the results i feel something that really needed: proud.

I need this feeling, i need this so i dont give up.

I dont have all the photos that we did that weekend, but i will show you some. Maybe you could capture the good memories i had by looking at this pictures. Maybe you can see a new Pimenta there, cause in that day i started to healing myself

You could see the scars on my eyes, but scars are just history.

The ladies with me in this pics: @bodycatatonia @jhurricane and our friend Renata.

I hope everyone are healing theirselves, see you soon.

Photographers: kon fotografia and moonderful

Xoxo

Pimenta

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mrgronek:
@pimenta Thank you for your honesty and open attitude towards recovery. I know you are a survivor just like me.
lprcon85:
It's so bittersweet, I want to see that set, but then I know it will be the last 😟 As long as you get better, I know I speak for everyone when I say, that is what matters.

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