Hey beautiful land
Like i already said, i'm in a difficult phase, and its difficult to even jump off the bed to have a new day.
But we need to heal our soul by ourselves, and that's what i'm trying to do every day.
A few weekends ago i went to São Paulo to do my last set for the site. Was shot by @kalincamaki, so it will be awesome set for sure. I'll post previews when i have it.
How i'm just did this travel to do this last shoot, i saw some friends and it becomes to a fun weekend of photoshoots, drinks, weed and hamburguers.
It was amazing, like a therapy, my friends helped me by healing me with my fave things, they now how to cheer me up as always: modeling.
I Just saw that i love to pose, that i just needed this. I love modeling and pushing it away of my life its not the answer.
What i need to do its just try to separate modeling of a personal competition that i have.
"Oh maybe i'm Just to fat to this"
"Should i stop to modeling cause i never had a set with great votes?"
"Why i'm not enough?"
Well, these things had haunted me my entire life, my family are not proud of me, why did i graduate from college if i cant suceed? Boys dont want me as a girlfriend for 7 years, am i too fat, or ugly? The question is the same, in every corner of my life: "why i'm not enough ? " i just try too hard and everything i'm going to do i just put my soul on it.
Why i never get there?
I dont know, but i Just saw that modeling helped me, when i see the results i feel something that really needed: proud.
I need this feeling, i need this so i dont give up.
I dont have all the photos that we did that weekend, but i will show you some. Maybe you could capture the good memories i had by looking at this pictures. Maybe you can see a new Pimenta there, cause in that day i started to healing myself
You could see the scars on my eyes, but scars are just history.
The ladies with me in this pics: @bodycatatonia @jhurricane and our friend Renata.
I hope everyone are healing theirselves, see you soon.
Photographers: kon fotografia and moonderful
Xoxo
Pimenta
