pillango

if you've given up on me, i cannot blame you. my available moments have been few and far between, and more precious to me than you can imagine.

my guelph friends managed to steal me away and take these pictures this weekend. i'll share and you can make believe i've given you some very much deserved attention.





these were taken before we went out in guelph for the first time in.... since last summer? characteristically, we drank far too much. it was lovely, though. we met up at mirna's and i dyed her hair while drinking some surprisingly sweet home-made red wine. i was rather surprised (pleasantly so) that she liked that her hair looked very very dark. thank fuck. going out itself, was semi-unrewarding (aside from much desired girly time). i am so sick of meeting people i have nothing in common with! boys (and girls) approached but our inebriated conversations were not enjoyable to me, even while inebreated. i don't know if this is yet another testament to my snobby attitude, but i think i've just fallen pray to the ennui and impatiance of my pomo lifestyle, or pomlyle, as i have now began calling it.

i made out with a boy, whatever, but it was so lack-luster, so "done". the lack of butterflies again. once again, i'd like to stress that i'm not "looking", i'm just interested in meeting the interesting.

the rest of the weekend was rather uneventful, aside from working days! this was a huuuuuuge improvement! of course it stole away what few hours i had at my own disposal, but nevertheless, it's not the night shift.

teaching has stolen my energy, my inspiration to update, and my life in general. it's been uneventful, mostly, and this is a good thing. every night, i'm in bed by 10, simply because i have to be, to privide what devotion i must to this period of my life. most students respond to me quite well, due to my lack of pretending. i am who i am, and they respect my honesty. i hope i did not jinx it now. a few weeks ago, a group of 12th graders were asking me what kind of music i liked (because i had my skull bag with me, i think) and were so excited to hear my recommendations. hahah. they asked if i liked death from above 1979. so i guess i look like i would. meh. and here i was, thinking i've become all professional. i got edge, my friends, edge, like a razor. booyah. (what? this does NOT sound like me. nerd, i am.)

sent some documents to france today. finally! idle no more. perhaps i will even venture on msn tonight.

my birthday (and the end of teaching) ? in 17 days, babies.