pilar

i feel ya girl, i'm going through the same thing. a friend i had a thing with got serious with someone else because we're a few states apart and it's just this stupid cycle of me having to pretend i don't still like him and him just shoving all the shit under a rug since it seems untainable or whatever in the hell he thinks...and i've come to the conclusion that if it doesn't happen naturally, forget it.

you're wise to cut off the relationship though - i think i would've saved myself a lot of grief had i done the same sooner. really, i thought stomaching the hurt to keep the friendship that i loved so much was worth it...but in the end it's not. actually the friendship gets lost and i think with putting some space between you you're preserving it. you know what you're doing though, you're a gem, i wish i had been as smart at 19

i miss chicago so much - i can't get out there for john-boy and i can't afford gas even. i want a damned leona's pizza! i'm gonna go rent john if i can't get the the real john - i'm jealous of all your john-age

Yeah I have let some relationships dragged on for way to long. I always end up regretting it cause I knew they were wrong but couldnt seem to break away. Then I end up feeling like I wasted time. But if you learn from the bad ones then it really isn't a loss I guess. And I agree with you Inez putting that distance there does preserve the friend ship cause you dont hurt each other when you are charged with emotion.

About the Descendents: That song I put up has to be one of my favs. I must have dedicated it to a few girls when I was youngerhahaha and when ever I listen to them I tend to listen to it over and over too. Great shit to sing along to in the car...hahaha