pilar

so this crush thing...
it's hard...
not only because you have this constant bellyache when you are around that person...
but also because the suspense of the moment lends itself to the possibility that you could or could not be liked back...
some people live for crushes...
something about being in constant pursuit of something that needs to be confirmed...
personally crushes and I have a love hate relationship..
the idea that i have moved on and that crushes are a reality for me once again are lovely..
the idea that my crush is no way near interested in myself is tastic...
so the toss up remains...to crush or not to crush...
and although my heart leads me in one direction...my mind is setting me straight...
girl you just have to let things go sometimes...