pilar

i would do anything i could to get away from my own feelings of worthlessness..
as a younger child than i am now, i used to constantly be upset with who i was...
what i looked like...what i turned out to be...
one of the easiest ways to get rid of my own insecurities was to drown them in lots and lots of vodka...
shots here...mixed drinks there...cider all around..
got myself into heaps...and i mean heaps...of sticky situations..
some i would rather forget about...most i don't even recall...
so disastisfied with everything...and well some might say i didn't know how to stop...


i've gotta say...it's good to put those days behind me...and well when i see people get the way i used to get...it just further confirms my notion that i made the right choice years past...and every day is a struggle..but it's so worth it!