Tuesday Jun 17, 2003

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DAY 2: JOSHUA

Josh and I met at a gas station. He was working at the counter and I was with my friends huffing gas fumes...
His mother hated me...because I wasn't Jewish...Somehow she though that being 16 meant I was ready to settle down...
He was one of my longest relationships...
He was a skinhead...he taught me what skinhead girls were...I stuck around longer than he did...
He bought me anything I wanted...He was again alot older than I was... 21 to my 16
I would start fights/arguements with him just to see where his loyalty stood....I felt it was like testing his love...
He taught me the joy of an orgasm and how lovely oral sex could be...
I guess I started one too many fights...
I didn't think I was in love...till he left and my heart felt like it was going to fall out of my chest...

JOSHUA WAS THE FIRST LOVE I EVER HAD!
I wonder what he's up to?
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VIEW 7 of 7 COMMENTS
a35mmlife:
ive only felt that feeling with fliplet... none before... but hopefully not the last time... *crosses fingers*
saturn1:
strange, my first love was when i was 16 with a 21 year old. very similar situation. he was actually really good too me, but i was too young, and i think he was so good to me that he broke things off because he sort of new that i didn't need to be serious with a 21 year old at that time in my life. he was the first person i took out for a drive when i got my driver's license. i wonder what that boy is up to, too.

are you going to cedar point? i may try to stick around here til that's planned out. i really don't want to but i like to have this journal. and there's some people, like you, that i genuinely like interacting with. and some people that just give me a fucking headache. remember belmondo? he's moving to san francisco soon, he;s in seattle right now. i miss him frown

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