Two full revolutions past the witching hour and I still can't sleep.
I decided (for the second night in a row, a personal best) to further expand the possibilities of fixing the computer problem with the power of the mighty dollar. I worked, pocketed my tips, had a smoke in the parking lot (my own little "fuck you" from me to the company), and came home. Well, more or less. I stopped in my usual haunt for a sandwich. My goal here is to have enough extra cash to either buy an e-machine or fix both my old desktop and laptop by next weekend.
I've been browsing the groups for about the past hour and a half now. A few caught my eye, but nothing really grabbed me outside of a whiskey group which I figured I could learn a thing or two from as a budding whiskey fan. Contrary to my physical actions, I'm a social person at heart. From what I see, making a few connections on the boards* here or there is basically time spent trying to keep one eye on the popular crowd while the other makes note of the annoying kids for future avoidance. You know, like in high school. Ahh well. And I don't really mean that to be a dig on anyone, either. It's just something that seems to be true wherever you go. Even in my favorite bar, I've never considered myself accepted as what that place might call the In Crowd. I mention this because I find it interesting how we, regardless of wisdom or intention, rarely seem to outgrow this cliquishness. I'm actually even curious how our 'round-the-world friends feel about this phenomenon, but I imagine the idea has been thrown to the vast opinion pool on this site before. In fact, I think I even saw a group for it.
I'm a little worried that I'm having trouble falling asleep because I'm sober, save for a few dwindling painkillers.
*edit: Ahh, the boards. Maybe it's just me, but I remember as a former member, the boards seemed to...be more active? Distant memories of the pleasure I got out of hearing my refresh button whimper with exhaustion are cropping up...or I'm just going batshit nuts in my old age.
I decided (for the second night in a row, a personal best) to further expand the possibilities of fixing the computer problem with the power of the mighty dollar. I worked, pocketed my tips, had a smoke in the parking lot (my own little "fuck you" from me to the company), and came home. Well, more or less. I stopped in my usual haunt for a sandwich. My goal here is to have enough extra cash to either buy an e-machine or fix both my old desktop and laptop by next weekend.
I've been browsing the groups for about the past hour and a half now. A few caught my eye, but nothing really grabbed me outside of a whiskey group which I figured I could learn a thing or two from as a budding whiskey fan. Contrary to my physical actions, I'm a social person at heart. From what I see, making a few connections on the boards* here or there is basically time spent trying to keep one eye on the popular crowd while the other makes note of the annoying kids for future avoidance. You know, like in high school. Ahh well. And I don't really mean that to be a dig on anyone, either. It's just something that seems to be true wherever you go. Even in my favorite bar, I've never considered myself accepted as what that place might call the In Crowd. I mention this because I find it interesting how we, regardless of wisdom or intention, rarely seem to outgrow this cliquishness. I'm actually even curious how our 'round-the-world friends feel about this phenomenon, but I imagine the idea has been thrown to the vast opinion pool on this site before. In fact, I think I even saw a group for it.
I'm a little worried that I'm having trouble falling asleep because I'm sober, save for a few dwindling painkillers.
*edit: Ahh, the boards. Maybe it's just me, but I remember as a former member, the boards seemed to...be more active? Distant memories of the pleasure I got out of hearing my refresh button whimper with exhaustion are cropping up...or I'm just going batshit nuts in my old age.