Man I drank too much last night.
[note to self:]
Tequila BAD!
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I don't know who took over my camera last night, but it certainly wasn't ME that took the photos I found on it this morning.
This was on there too, its my first try at painting... its not done yet of course, but I am trying to make it like some...
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[note to self:]
Tequila BAD!
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I don't know who took over my camera last night, but it certainly wasn't ME that took the photos I found on it this morning.
This was on there too, its my first try at painting... its not done yet of course, but I am trying to make it like some...
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I hope that the last three days of my postings have not come off as too sad and depressed sounding, because I am not at all. Truthfully, I have been feeling pretty fuckin good as of late.
The email transaction that was effectively the final nail in the coffin actually happened almost a week ago, and I have had quite a bit of time to...
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The email transaction that was effectively the final nail in the coffin actually happened almost a week ago, and I have had quite a bit of time to...
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boggs:
The Brickyard was fantastic! I just wish I had gotten there earlier. Honestly I have no idea what anyone looks like so I didn't know who to look for!
Now I must rest on the couch.
Now I must rest on the couch.
hotbonbon:
This breaks my heart as I also have a very strong bond with my cat, Hamish. He is, without question, the most charasmatic, complex creature I have ever known. My husband and I have always had cats in our lives (hey, do you remember Mittens? I had her for 13 years. She died in my arms) and Hamish has touched something in us both that we cannot describe but try to almost daily. I love him as much as my own son, but maybe slightly differently....
Anyhow, I can't imagine how this must feel for you - dealing with your own shit, then having to watch this adored beast's disappointment and melancholy. Lots of love, some time and biscuits. Same works for humans!
Anyhow, I can't imagine how this must feel for you - dealing with your own shit, then having to watch this adored beast's disappointment and melancholy. Lots of love, some time and biscuits. Same works for humans!
R,
I said in my email to you that those words were the first and last you were going to hear from me on that topic. I meant that. That had been building for 3 months -- I needed to get that off my chest and I did.
That being said, I dont have a clear indication of what it is you are really going...
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I said in my email to you that those words were the first and last you were going to hear from me on that topic. I meant that. That had been building for 3 months -- I needed to get that off my chest and I did.
That being said, I dont have a clear indication of what it is you are really going...
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sluttygoodgirl:
"i've moved past allowing it to hurt me anymore." - that must be a great place to have gotten to. Yes, she obviously still cares, or she wouldn't be taking the time to check up on you!
wtf:
Maybe she cares enough to check in on you and your well being as a person she once loved even if that love has now changed form. Or...
Maybe she's just checking to see who you are dating,
what horrible things you are saying about her,
What horrible things other people are saying about her,
or trying to validate the evil misconceptions of you that she has roaming around in her head. (The stories that go about when communication shuts down)
Ahhhh. what we do to ourselves and those around us.
With time there will be peace. But first there must be a new way of B-E-I-N-G. I wish the best for all those involved, including those with paws.
Maybe she's just checking to see who you are dating,
what horrible things you are saying about her,
What horrible things other people are saying about her,
or trying to validate the evil misconceptions of you that she has roaming around in her head. (The stories that go about when communication shuts down)
Ahhhh. what we do to ourselves and those around us.
With time there will be peace. But first there must be a new way of B-E-I-N-G. I wish the best for all those involved, including those with paws.
Well, not exactly the result I was hoping for:
You are absolved of your debt to me. Please redirect the remainder of what you owe to me to Morgan's care. This includes the balance of the visa.
I have stated more than once that I did not want or need to have additional information about your life, work or personal; that I did not want...
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You are absolved of your debt to me. Please redirect the remainder of what you owe to me to Morgan's care. This includes the balance of the visa.
I have stated more than once that I did not want or need to have additional information about your life, work or personal; that I did not want...
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wtf:
Guess it was all just a mattter of time.
Better her than you, maybe she'll feel empowered this way.
I'd like to say dogs don't understand, but who knows?
At least you don't have to put up with the uncomfortable dog exchanges anymore. Time to look forward, and not back.
Happy for you.
Better her than you, maybe she'll feel empowered this way.
I'd like to say dogs don't understand, but who knows?
At least you don't have to put up with the uncomfortable dog exchanges anymore. Time to look forward, and not back.
Happy for you.
sluttygoodgirl:
Yes, I'm sure a lot of mixed feelings. Glad to hear that sad isn't one of them, and that you feel good about how you handled all of it - I think you did great, especially with how SHE handled everything! 
Ok, Im just going to cap this bottle and throw it in the ocean. I made some vague remarks the other day about some major change that went down over here, and a couple of days before that, I made a comment about how I had finally gotten a bunch of stuff off my chest, and how good I felt about that.
I kinda stopped...
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I kinda stopped...
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freakchef:
Hi there long time no reply to journal.
All I got to say is your mannerism in all this is upstanding and proper. Can you teach me how to do that?
All I got to say is your mannerism in all this is upstanding and proper. Can you teach me how to do that?
I seem to be in quiet lurk mode. So much to say, and no ability to word it.
I'm alive though.
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Come to think of it, it's not really that I don't have the ability to word it, it's more that I don't seem to have the time..... Since starting this cleanse thing, I have filled my hours outside...
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I'm alive though.
[EDIT MODE (three hours later)]
Come to think of it, it's not really that I don't have the ability to word it, it's more that I don't seem to have the time..... Since starting this cleanse thing, I have filled my hours outside...
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cassiopeia:
Oh my goodness. You like Eraserhead? Please be my friend. Awesome profile picture. I also love the way you write.
wtf:
Sounds like you have spent your time well. Especially if you have had time for baths instead of showers!
[Edited on Jan 18, 2005 7:49PM]
[Edited on Jan 18, 2005 7:49PM]
Monday, January 17
When it comes to making decisions, dear Pisces, do what is best for you. Don't feel like you need to perform certain tasks because you feel guilty about a past situation. Do things because you want to do them, not because you feel like you have an obligation to someone else. The only obligation you have is to yourself. If it truly...
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When it comes to making decisions, dear Pisces, do what is best for you. Don't feel like you need to perform certain tasks because you feel guilty about a past situation. Do things because you want to do them, not because you feel like you have an obligation to someone else. The only obligation you have is to yourself. If it truly...
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wtf:
hey there
hi there
ho there
stranger!
hi there
ho there
stranger!
Oh god I hope I haven't totally fucked up my Xbox.
Being the geek that I am, I got heavy into the idea of being able to run Linux on an xbox. Of course, I didn't even own an Xbox at the time, but the idea never left me and on occasion I would go off on some fast worded speel to R about how...
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Being the geek that I am, I got heavy into the idea of being able to run Linux on an xbox. Of course, I didn't even own an Xbox at the time, but the idea never left me and on occasion I would go off on some fast worded speel to R about how...
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sluttygoodgirl:
a magnet..... *concentrates hard on being a magnet*
lisa_why:
Did you just soft mod it then?
And now for something completely different.
About 4 or 5 years ago, I was driving my truck down Richards street. While waiting for the light on Georgia, I looked out my side window and saw a woman on the sidewalk that banged a gong in my old school memory.
I really mean my old school.
I was positive that that woman I saw was the...
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About 4 or 5 years ago, I was driving my truck down Richards street. While waiting for the light on Georgia, I looked out my side window and saw a woman on the sidewalk that banged a gong in my old school memory.
I really mean my old school.
I was positive that that woman I saw was the...
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sluttygoodgirl:
I went and said Hi, I could relate so much to what she wrote.
hotbonbon:
I didn't know whether to laugh or cry. You have a way of capturing memories that even an old Varsity Acres girl can't resist. Isn't time elusive? How could so much have changed since we last connected...it's seems like a small lifetime passed since the huge lifetime that passed us after school.
Thanks for your warm welcome and vignette of memory lane. Really nice on a rainy day like today. I'm glad you're feeling better, (even th ough your xbox isn't....as if I even know what the hell you're talking about!) and that you feel strong. We must have coffee soon k? This is all well and fine but I"d love to see you! You can meet the Jack Rabbit and see what all the fuss is about.
Lemme know.....I'm pretty flex with time.
Cheers!!
bonbon
Thanks for your warm welcome and vignette of memory lane. Really nice on a rainy day like today. I'm glad you're feeling better, (even th ough your xbox isn't....as if I even know what the hell you're talking about!) and that you feel strong. We must have coffee soon k? This is all well and fine but I"d love to see you! You can meet the Jack Rabbit and see what all the fuss is about.
Lemme know.....I'm pretty flex with time.
Cheers!!
bonbon
I must update this. That last entry was surprisingly vague, and I think it makes things sound much worse than they really are.
I am feeling at peace. Sure there's sadness and disappointment and maybe even a bit of anger, but I'll get around to writing sometime soon.
It's not that bad, really. It's just that it is a really big happening in the saga...
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I am feeling at peace. Sure there's sadness and disappointment and maybe even a bit of anger, but I'll get around to writing sometime soon.
It's not that bad, really. It's just that it is a really big happening in the saga...
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bluechild:
you must smile at me some time
freakqueen:
snow is indeed very, very cold
but anybody with any intellect would be understanding if they saw you mid-naked snow angel.
but anybody with any intellect would be understanding if they saw you mid-naked snow angel.
Guess who I am?