5 days, 8 hours, 50 minutes and 43 seconds smoke free.
134 cigarettes not smoked.
Day 6 here. Weird. This reminds me of the time I quit after my 25th birthday. I remember I just woke up the next day outta smokes and broke, and thought neh. I dont wanna smoke anymore.
So I didnt. My memory of that period of time paints it that simple. I never went through angry withdrawal, I never fought off urges, I just stopped smoking. (although, I think at the time I may have branched off into chronic mode when it came to the BC bud for a while R could probably attest to the fact that I ended up replacing cigarettes with joints for a while there.)
Anyways 7 months later I was incredibly sick with the flu, and I actually went out and bought smokes on a day when I was at my sickest. That got me started again.
Fast forward 12 years.
That experience was an experience I always compared my attempts to every time I tried to quit smoking again. Why was it SO EASY back then? What was different?
Every time I tried to quit after that I went through hell.. I couldn't handle it... I lamented the ease I remembered, and I failed with each attempt.
Well I still dont know exactly what it is, but Im there inside that ease again. The ease this time is a bit strange. I guess it really comes down to me just getting sick and tired of things in general. Finally fed up and a hundred other clichs.
Thats a different story as usual, one I suppose I will approach when its not 7:30 in the morning and I am waiting for eggs to boil so I can yabadabbadoo it along the seawall to punch in for another day of bit crunchin and button makin.
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I came across a passage in this book I'm reading.
I like this little bit a lot.
I like it for 2 reasons.
The little understood concept of interdependence appears to many to smack of dependence, and therefore, we find people, often for selfish reasons, leaving their marriages, abandoning their children, and forsaking all kinds of social responsibility all in the name of independence.
The kind of reaction that results in people throwing off their shackles, becoming liberated, asserting themselves and doing their own thing often reveals more fundamental dependencies that cannot be run away from because they are internal rather than external dependencies such as letting the weaknesses of other people ruin our emotional lives or feeling victimized by people and events out of our control.
Of course, we may need to change our circumstances. But the dependence problem is a personal maturity issue that little to do with circumstances. Even with better circumstances, immaturity and dependence often persist.
I read that and said Daaaaamn.
134 cigarettes not smoked.
Day 6 here. Weird. This reminds me of the time I quit after my 25th birthday. I remember I just woke up the next day outta smokes and broke, and thought neh. I dont wanna smoke anymore.
So I didnt. My memory of that period of time paints it that simple. I never went through angry withdrawal, I never fought off urges, I just stopped smoking. (although, I think at the time I may have branched off into chronic mode when it came to the BC bud for a while R could probably attest to the fact that I ended up replacing cigarettes with joints for a while there.)
Anyways 7 months later I was incredibly sick with the flu, and I actually went out and bought smokes on a day when I was at my sickest. That got me started again.
Fast forward 12 years.
That experience was an experience I always compared my attempts to every time I tried to quit smoking again. Why was it SO EASY back then? What was different?
Every time I tried to quit after that I went through hell.. I couldn't handle it... I lamented the ease I remembered, and I failed with each attempt.
Well I still dont know exactly what it is, but Im there inside that ease again. The ease this time is a bit strange. I guess it really comes down to me just getting sick and tired of things in general. Finally fed up and a hundred other clichs.
Thats a different story as usual, one I suppose I will approach when its not 7:30 in the morning and I am waiting for eggs to boil so I can yabadabbadoo it along the seawall to punch in for another day of bit crunchin and button makin.
-------------end smoking update---------------------------------
I came across a passage in this book I'm reading.
I like this little bit a lot.
I like it for 2 reasons.
The little understood concept of interdependence appears to many to smack of dependence, and therefore, we find people, often for selfish reasons, leaving their marriages, abandoning their children, and forsaking all kinds of social responsibility all in the name of independence.
The kind of reaction that results in people throwing off their shackles, becoming liberated, asserting themselves and doing their own thing often reveals more fundamental dependencies that cannot be run away from because they are internal rather than external dependencies such as letting the weaknesses of other people ruin our emotional lives or feeling victimized by people and events out of our control.
Of course, we may need to change our circumstances. But the dependence problem is a personal maturity issue that little to do with circumstances. Even with better circumstances, immaturity and dependence often persist.
I read that and said Daaaaamn.
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