Ha! I just got my first snail mail junkmail sent to Bill Bixby. Everytime I fill out an application for a store card or something like that, I always try to come up with a new identity, just to screw with the databases they are trying to compile, and also to try to keep track of whos tryin to sell my ass to who. This just came today:
Dear Bill Bixby,
As a Valued Shoppers Optimum Member, we want to provide you with exclusive opportunities that can improve your well-being. To help increase your financial well-being, we have arranged for you to receive $2,500 of Accidental Death Insurance for ONE FULL YEAR
Ok, this is funny on three counts.
1. I am THE INCREDIBLE HULK!! (aka Dr. David Bruce Banner ) Do you reeeeally think I need your Death Insurance ? I could crush you like an ANT.
2. Secondly. Exactly how does this benefit my financial well-being. I have not yet read the fine print, but would I not have to actually accidentally DIE before getting my measley 2 grand?
3. I actually died in 1993 of prostrate cancer, is this your idea of some sick joke?
I think the next one will be Billy the Kid I just need to find out what his real name was.
Anyways, on a completely different note, taking the bus today was not all that bad at all, and if anything I kinda cheered up in the process. I suppose because I spend such an unusual amount of time by myself these days, (at work, I work alone mostly in the basement, inside a room with no windows, kinda under the stairs. Its not as bad as it sounds, but sometimes the whole day goes by and I dont see anybody until I briefly come upstairs to refill my coffee or something.)
Of course, I dont really have my old circle of friends anymore, the ones that I would hang out with throughout the week or whatever, or at least talk on the phone with or something. I drive to work alone, I drive home alone, I walk the dog alone. But mostly, I dont have my co-dependent counterpart)
Maybe thats why the process of getting on the bus today and squishing in with all that humid perfume, joining everybody else that couldnt see out through the steamed up windows, all those glum faces, maybe that was it. I was a part of something?
Something else that was different about my public transit experience today was this though; I read this chapter last night in bed before falling asleep:
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Again, this is from The Power of Now, by Eckart Tolle.
The key is to be in a state of permanent connectedness with your inner body to feel it at all times. This will rapidly deepen and transform your life. The more consciousness you direct into the inner body, the higher its vibrational frequency becomes, much like a light that grows brighter as you turn up the dimmer switch and so increase the flow of electricity. At this higher energy level, negativity cannot affect you anymore, and you tend to attract new circumstances that reflect this higher frequency.
If you keep your attention in the body as much as possible, you will be anchored in the Now. You wont lose yourself in your mind. Thoughts and emotions, fears and desires, may still be there to some extent, but they wont take you over.
Please examine where your attention is at this moment. You are listening to me, or you are reading these words in a book. That is the focus of your attention. You are also peripherally aware of your surroundings, other people, and so on. Furthermore, there may be some mild activity around what you are hearing or reading, some mental commentary. Yet there is no need for any of this to absorb all your attention. See if you can be in touch with your inner body at the same time. Keep some of your attention within. Dont let it all flow out. Fell your whole body from within, as a single field of energy. It is almost as if your were listening or reading with your whole body. Let this be your practice in the days and weeks to come.
Do not give all your attention away to the mind and the eternal world. By all means focus on what you are doing, but feel the inner body at the same time whenever possible. Stay rooted within. Then observe how this changes your state of consciousness and the quality of what you are doing.
Whenever you are waiting, wherever it may be, use that time to feel the inner body. In this way, traffic jams and line-ups become very enjoyable. Instead of mentally projecting yourself away from the now, go more deeply into the Now by going more deeply into the body.
The art of inner-body awareness will develop into a completely new way of living, a state of permanent connectedness with Being, and will add a depth to your life that you have never known before.
It is ease to stay present as the observer of your mind when you are deeply rooted within your body. No matter what happens on the outside, nothing can shake you anymore.
Unless you stay present and inhabiting your body is always an essential aspect of it you will continue to be run by your mind. The script in your head that you learned a long time ago, the conditioning of your mind, will dictate your thinking and your behavior. You may be free of it for brief intervals, but rarely for long. This is especially true when something goes wrong or there is some loss or upset. Your conditioned reaction will then be involuntary, automatic, and predictable, fueled by the one basic emotion that underlies the mind-identified state of consciousness: fear.
I actually tried to do that all the way to work, and all the way home on the bus. It was strange, not easy, but I dunno compared to driving to work in traffic, I had the ability to just chill. It wasnt so bad.
Dear Bill Bixby,
As a Valued Shoppers Optimum Member, we want to provide you with exclusive opportunities that can improve your well-being. To help increase your financial well-being, we have arranged for you to receive $2,500 of Accidental Death Insurance for ONE FULL YEAR
Ok, this is funny on three counts.
1. I am THE INCREDIBLE HULK!! (aka Dr. David Bruce Banner ) Do you reeeeally think I need your Death Insurance ? I could crush you like an ANT.
2. Secondly. Exactly how does this benefit my financial well-being. I have not yet read the fine print, but would I not have to actually accidentally DIE before getting my measley 2 grand?
3. I actually died in 1993 of prostrate cancer, is this your idea of some sick joke?
I think the next one will be Billy the Kid I just need to find out what his real name was.
Anyways, on a completely different note, taking the bus today was not all that bad at all, and if anything I kinda cheered up in the process. I suppose because I spend such an unusual amount of time by myself these days, (at work, I work alone mostly in the basement, inside a room with no windows, kinda under the stairs. Its not as bad as it sounds, but sometimes the whole day goes by and I dont see anybody until I briefly come upstairs to refill my coffee or something.)
Of course, I dont really have my old circle of friends anymore, the ones that I would hang out with throughout the week or whatever, or at least talk on the phone with or something. I drive to work alone, I drive home alone, I walk the dog alone. But mostly, I dont have my co-dependent counterpart)
Maybe thats why the process of getting on the bus today and squishing in with all that humid perfume, joining everybody else that couldnt see out through the steamed up windows, all those glum faces, maybe that was it. I was a part of something?
Something else that was different about my public transit experience today was this though; I read this chapter last night in bed before falling asleep:
-
Again, this is from The Power of Now, by Eckart Tolle.
The key is to be in a state of permanent connectedness with your inner body to feel it at all times. This will rapidly deepen and transform your life. The more consciousness you direct into the inner body, the higher its vibrational frequency becomes, much like a light that grows brighter as you turn up the dimmer switch and so increase the flow of electricity. At this higher energy level, negativity cannot affect you anymore, and you tend to attract new circumstances that reflect this higher frequency.
If you keep your attention in the body as much as possible, you will be anchored in the Now. You wont lose yourself in your mind. Thoughts and emotions, fears and desires, may still be there to some extent, but they wont take you over.
Please examine where your attention is at this moment. You are listening to me, or you are reading these words in a book. That is the focus of your attention. You are also peripherally aware of your surroundings, other people, and so on. Furthermore, there may be some mild activity around what you are hearing or reading, some mental commentary. Yet there is no need for any of this to absorb all your attention. See if you can be in touch with your inner body at the same time. Keep some of your attention within. Dont let it all flow out. Fell your whole body from within, as a single field of energy. It is almost as if your were listening or reading with your whole body. Let this be your practice in the days and weeks to come.
Do not give all your attention away to the mind and the eternal world. By all means focus on what you are doing, but feel the inner body at the same time whenever possible. Stay rooted within. Then observe how this changes your state of consciousness and the quality of what you are doing.
Whenever you are waiting, wherever it may be, use that time to feel the inner body. In this way, traffic jams and line-ups become very enjoyable. Instead of mentally projecting yourself away from the now, go more deeply into the Now by going more deeply into the body.
The art of inner-body awareness will develop into a completely new way of living, a state of permanent connectedness with Being, and will add a depth to your life that you have never known before.
It is ease to stay present as the observer of your mind when you are deeply rooted within your body. No matter what happens on the outside, nothing can shake you anymore.
Unless you stay present and inhabiting your body is always an essential aspect of it you will continue to be run by your mind. The script in your head that you learned a long time ago, the conditioning of your mind, will dictate your thinking and your behavior. You may be free of it for brief intervals, but rarely for long. This is especially true when something goes wrong or there is some loss or upset. Your conditioned reaction will then be involuntary, automatic, and predictable, fueled by the one basic emotion that underlies the mind-identified state of consciousness: fear.
I actually tried to do that all the way to work, and all the way home on the bus. It was strange, not easy, but I dunno compared to driving to work in traffic, I had the ability to just chill. It wasnt so bad.
Last week I got one of those Columbia House applications again. So I filled up the postage paid envelope with my other junk mail and sent it back to them.