pica_pica

i don't think i posted this one here before.
I mentioned this poem in my post way back when regarding that dream I had the night my old girlfriend had her first experience with the new boy. I woke up in Calgary at 3:00 in the morning from a nightmare of being raped by a guy, and I knew that my GF was here in vancouver getting layed. I don't know how, but I knew.

It was written as 3 different poems. the brackets as her experience, the bold as my experience, and then the two of them together -- to symbolize the link iof the two in the relationship.
Some parts don't really work out as well as I had hoped, but it is what it is.

__________(Infidelity)

He raped me in my sleep
__________(its just a word)
And my teeth shattered
__________(to you.)
In the cold.
__________(it meant nothing)
Now I am walking numb,
__________(youre still in love)
And bloodied by the pounding
__________(and waiting for me)
Echo of your honesty.

He seduces my dreams
__________(the last couple of weeks)
Where I used to curl up
__________(youve been so lonely)
And hide.
__________(you needed to feel someones warmth)

He wakes me,
__________(someone to hold you)
Panting your name,
__________(and you think of me,)
Feeling his fingers
__________(and I am so far away)
Clutching at my breast.

I lay awake screaming, alone, celibate
__________(you dream of us together)
I can smell his faceless breath
__________(holding you close to me)
A burning, throbbing hemmorage
__________(its only a matter of time)
Is bleeding till I sleep
__________(then well be together)
Ill writhe into unconciousness
__________(our bodies locked)
Then hell come again
__________(warm in our bed)
To impregnate me
__________(and youll forget)
Through you
__________(the past.)