pica_pica

"The significant problems we face cannot be solved at the same level of thinking we were at when
we created them."

- Albert Einstein

Shed your skin. Recreate your definition of reality. That's one thing that is truly ours and we don't even have to share it with others, at least people we don't want to. Who said the crazy person's idea of reality is any less real to them than yours is to you? Some people just put a lot less thought into change than others so it just seems easier from the outside. Create your core anew. It's your future. You only get so much time after all. Best wishes.

Thats a great quote. very timely, thanks!
I still don't know where that all came from, and after I wrote it I was not entirely sure if maybe it was meant for me.

I mean, i TRY to live like that, but it's very very difficult to be sure that you aren't somehow still seeing a skewed view.
As far as sharing our reality with others, I don't think that's entirely possible, due to so much personal shit that happens to all of us through our lives.
I guess I meant that if my loved ones don't seem to try to be a bit introspective at times, and take a look at themselves, and also go through difficult periods of growth while suffering all the pains of the shedding of their old self, ... it somehow widens a chasm between myself and them. Like we have less and less to relate to in conversation.

I see what you mean, when there are pets involved it's complicated. Especially with new facts developing.

Maybe she will come around when she can, but maybe it's too soon. For her, or for you both. I was just going through the same kind of situation. I knew I would have to take the pets/kids (I say kids because come on, that's pretty much how we feel when we don't have kids). For her to walk away and not even care, yeah BE pissed. Is it possible she's using the lack of care for your dog to hurt you? Would you confuse her care and concern for the dog as care and concern for you and the relationship? Has she always been so all or nothing? Once I get the facts and my head around something I tend to be so myself even if my heart is conflicted which might be a woman thing, I'm not sure.

Luckily there is not a dog involved in my break-up. I too was in a relationship with a woman that had an off switch.......it could be quite cruel at times.......for the last year she has been using the off switch now and again...which was quite painful for me.....I do think about her and unfortunately I have to talk to her to sort out apartment things.......but I hear you

Are the car jackers from Surrey?

I am totally enthralled with your writings, seeing as I'm going through a break-up myself, although it is a very different situation. Anyways, I keep ending up reading your journals in marathon stints, so I would like to add you as a friend so I can keep up day-to-day.

It's hard to let go when you had so much of yourself invested in someone else.

Don't beat yourself in the forehead too much about it. If after 12 years you could just walk away so easily... there would be a problem...more than trying to redefine yourself, by yourself. Take care of you first. She's probably just trying to do the same.

I'm selling at the West End market this coming Saturday, the 21st. I usually don't get to check out all the vendors selling the same day as me so I often miss out on great stuff.

daaaaaaaaaamnn

Thank you so much for the wonderful advice. It's so appreciated.

Ohhhhhhhhhhh I Love Great Danes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Had a Blk female named Marie Antoniet or just Tony for short...God how i miss that girl!!!
Now i have the ultra oppsite in a lil blk Pug Named Miss Zoe'Blu...& She a Holy Terror!!!!
As for your getting dog's paw print tattooed might i say that is Simply an AWSOME Idea!!!
I once had a cat that lived to be 24 years old and yes i had her all of those 24yr's She was such an amazingly cool creature and when she succumed to cancer i went and had her paw print tattooed in to my sternum (See picture below) We used Black ink that was mixed with her ashes.
You see i had brought her in to this world when i was just an 8 year old and had to take her out when i was 26...
I Guess tattooing her ashes in to my body just seemed minor after that.
Anyhoo thank's for poping in to my journal space
Oh and PS....
Paint his paw with blk acrylic paint and have him walk on a piece of paper i used butcher paper.
Than they can make an Exact copy or transfer of his paw to tattoo.
Ciao~SB7


[Edited on Aug 14, 2004 5:33PM]

way to much to read without pictures.... so
HI
Bye

well, it sure has helped my attitude a ton finding that old journal. I had conveniently forgotten so much crap that went on, and now that that is all fresh again in my mind, I am off on another tangent.
I guess the last few weeks, I was not exactly moving on. I did what I had to do with the breakup, and then stopped everything. Just stopped.
Everything is a helluva lot more clear now, if not a bit scary. There's alot of changes I wanna see around here.

On a bright note, MINISTRY IS COMING!

Yay! they are playing with My Life with the Thrill Kill Cult at the commodore Sept 30th.

[Edited on Aug 13, 2004 4:56PM]

I often refer to it as the crime train.

If I was free right now I head over to Lugs. But I'm not. I'm doing some live-in child care work until Saturday and I don't get my daily break until 3:30. Another time!