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I just cant do it anymore, I am driving myself insane running this road. There's no way for me to stop without coming to a complete end. I've been doing this too long, I'm tired. This road gets me nowhere, I can't even imagine an end anymore. I had hopes, and dreams, and now I can't stand it anymore. I got myself lost, and I...
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So. . .yeah. . .who reads this anyway? Kinda funny I think. . .that only a couple of souls dare to delve into the literary works the flow from my fingers onto the various journals I have strewn across the internet. Ah, well, ny fingers just don't seem to be flowing at the moment, so this is as far as my update goes. . .....
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I am sitting here in a thunder storm, enjoying the the sight and sound of nature flexing it's muscle. As if to show us that with all the worries and fears in the world, from bills to work to war. That she is still a mighty force and will not be cast aside as just another inconvenience. The hair on my arms stands on end,...
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I'm now on "second rotation" on the lovely windward side of oahu . So far so good, nothing really spectacular as of yet, the generic Chest pains and difficulty breathing calls, occasional minor trauma. Good oppertunity to sit and read up on what I can. And relax watching "My so called life". Other than that, Life has gotten pretty boring, work is taking time from...
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So for the past few days I have been feeling really strange. And maybe I still do, It's like I feel numb all over and inside. There is no passion here anymore, the spark has faded to nothing leaving me empty and longing for something and I don't know what. It's strange how these things go, always looking for something to happen, and things never...
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ARGH! there are so many close minded people in this world. So now my work is getting into it, it seems that my employer feels that my ears being streched are unsafe and unprofessional. BULLSH!T ! Attempts made to hide them of atleast tone down the visibility have been driving me insane. As seen in my suspension photo, is one attempt. . .not good enough!...
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Having spent many a night, up late, pondering many aspects of myself. It has not seemed to get me any closer to whatever it is I have been searching for.

However maybe this past afternoon I may have made it at the least one step closer to where I would like to be.
I have yet to (and may never) find a way to convey...
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Well it's back to the grind, Just got back from the U.S. Mainland Road trip from San Fransisco to Grand Forks ND. With a few stops and detoursalong the way. Fun fun fun, but now it's back to the daily (I Hate paperwork) hell that is Paramedic Internship. . .'till later, "Hang loose"

tonight a young man left his home,
his mother said goodbye,
he went to a birthday party on the rocky shores of a beach.
tonight a mother got a phone call.
It's never good to get a call from the police at nine at night.
"There has been an incident with your son, he's on the way to the hospital now"
tonight the young man...
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Work gets to me, yes,but not in the classic, "seeing so much misery" kind of way, but more so all the bullshit and corruption within the systems I work with. I have actually taken a break from it this week to re-evaluate if where I am is where I am supposed to be. Had a pretty good "Dissecting Aortic Aneurysm" the other day. Thats when...
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Had a good trauma today. A head on car accident, with three cars and three patients, mine had open leg fractures and possible internal injuries. I'm not sure yet but I think one of the others didn't make it. Intense call at work today to say the least.

Today was just a day fading into another. Or so the song goes. Back to work today and had a pretty good day for being off for nearly 2 weeks. Oh well, I should be sleeping right now So I guess it's off to sleepy land