photogawd

Well I have had a rough couple of days. Threatened to be kicked out of my parents house, Threatened to have my only mode of transportation sold, Losing all faith in my ability to take Photographs, I feel like I am losing the love of my own children.

Applying for any job open right now with no luck in employment. Bills are racking up. Stress levels are at an all time high right now. Getting yelled at every time I turn around. Thought about trying to quit smoking and being a little more healthy, That's not even working for me when I have no motivation to even get out of bed in the morning. It feels that my children are pushing me away. They don't come to me when they have a problem or even when they have good news. I have to hear about it from my mother.

I still have my camera and yet it collects dust under my desk. No one is interested in helping me practice around here. My Equipment is sitting in a friends garage getting ruined and there isn't anything I can do about it. I have nowhere to store it. I have been attempting to "edit" SourSkittles photos that she took and I feel I have no earthly idea what I am doing.

Am I becoming obsolete?
I am stuck between a razor blade and a gun barrel right now and I don't know what to do.