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Well I was hoping for a better trip than I had but I will take what little alone time I had. I had plenty of time in between worries to think and try to sort out my thoughts and feelings. I have decided I need to help my parents more and repay them for all the help they have done for me and my kids. I am going to try to quit smoking, eat a little healthier, go on walks again with my dog, be a better dad to my kids. I thought it might have just been the stress from the move but I have become a little more aggressive towards them. I think it more has to do with their attitude since they visited their mom in New Mexico. All she did was take them out to buy them new toys. So they think their mom is the greatest. But where is she the rest of the time? Where is she when they get hurt or have nightmares? Not sitting up late at night rocking them and telling them it'll all be okay. o kissing their Boo-Boo's all better. Nope... That is all on me and they just treat me like crap now. I told my oldest today that he couldn't play the Xbox because Pa-Pa (My Dad) hadn't brought in the TV and Grandma so we couldn't. He told me that they will get over it if we did. They weren't like that when they left me in Utah.

So yea I have been starting to feel a crash coming on and it's starting to hit. I am going to pop in some good old Wallace & Gromit and try to sleep.

Night everyone