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Okay so I think I might be needing a little more sleep than what I have been getting. I have been doing some thinking and discovered that I need to figure some shit out. Like what am I going to do for work once we move, when do I tell my parental units that I am not going back to school. I have had such a screwed up life that never seems to make sense or work to my advantage. Every person I have come to love in my life has left me and I can barely keep friends. (I have noticed that my friends number on SG has been falling a little.) I try to be myself and do the things I love and hope to find others that love the same things and yet I am still alone.

I have no support. I have no umph anymore. I constantly feel depressed and mask it with large amounts of caffeine. The stress around here makes me want to drink large amounts of alcohol but I know that will just make the depression worse. I am at a loss with no escape!