Tossing and turning- Woke up late... gnarly, headachey, i said it before and I'll say it again- I need a really good massage.
I feel fucking tense as hell today. Mr Downstairs neighbour has his music on fucking full blast and I'm on the verge of going down there and giving him a good kick in the ass. Fucking floorboards are vibrating. Fucker. If my...
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I feel fucking tense as hell today. Mr Downstairs neighbour has his music on fucking full blast and I'm on the verge of going down there and giving him a good kick in the ass. Fucking floorboards are vibrating. Fucker. If my...
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sabine:
ps i love you for knowing that smashing pumpkins song 
drunkpunk:
Our bassist is making me VERY pissed off today
Almost three am- ye insomnia returneth. I need a massage...
Listening to 'Nighthawks at the diner' Tom Waits- the injection of humour make sthat album for me...
How do you even start writing a novel? I was browsing all the Word files Iain has on this computer and he has about eight BEGINNINGS of novels he's started and then quit on. I can't work him...
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Listening to 'Nighthawks at the diner' Tom Waits- the injection of humour make sthat album for me...
How do you even start writing a novel? I was browsing all the Word files Iain has on this computer and he has about eight BEGINNINGS of novels he's started and then quit on. I can't work him...
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webigailboop:
i never noticed that the hottest state is one of your favorite books. that book is so amazing, not enough people have read it. have you read ethan hawke's second book, ash wednesday? it's pretty good, but doesn't even compare to the hottest state.
noelle:
I`m thinking of a sort of modified chelsea? But i`ve been growing it out for a long time, so i`m nervous. It`s just that with summer coming, i want to be able to just get up and go. I want to be super low maintenence.
Actually, my weekend was fantastic!!
Actually, my weekend was fantastic!!
Jeux sans frontires
Jeux sans frontires
Things going down today-
Had the greatest of wake-up sex this morning- nothing like being wokrn up and in the next second you're... well, you know what I mean. Pretty great way to start any day, eh?
Ate one of Iain's hard-to-come-by-poppyseed bagels - which he's gonna be pissed about since he's... uh- paying for EVERYTHING grocery-wise and here...
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Jeux sans frontires
Things going down today-
Had the greatest of wake-up sex this morning- nothing like being wokrn up and in the next second you're... well, you know what I mean. Pretty great way to start any day, eh?
Ate one of Iain's hard-to-come-by-poppyseed bagels - which he's gonna be pissed about since he's... uh- paying for EVERYTHING grocery-wise and here...
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melvin_:
mmmmm knee-high boots! pics?
sparkle:
dude.....i really dont need to be sleeping right now, gotta go see the idiot make his speech in about 20 mins. hallucinating off of a melon sounds way bad..ive tripped off of muscle relaxers and speed before, kinda weird. the weather here is pretty dreary also, but i love the way it sounds always puts me in a mood....*rawr*
Alright... so we're back home. It's so nice to be back after this hellish weekend apart. Thank god... Iain and I met up at the train station (I sat and waited for whjat felt like ages in the freezing cold, but it was worth it), and we talked as we walked home. He is so sweet to me... asking me if I wanted to get...
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sabine:
you are the sweetest, ever. :kisses:
i have periods of mood swings, but i'm sure i'll feel sane again soon. of course if you were here i would delight in your pampering. either way thanks for the kind words.
i have periods of mood swings, but i'm sure i'll feel sane again soon. of course if you were here i would delight in your pampering. either way thanks for the kind words.
melvin_:
hey lady!
here b the answer's
black
pepsi max
tank girl / foxfire
the crow although that'll b a comic / kurt cobain journals
snow tiger or a snake
hate cauliflower!
me black/red stripy boy pants with skull and cross bones on! yay!
didnt like monster ball that much but i think seein billy bob nakie and shoutin "why! does he get to fuck angelina!" still dont get it! put me off watch it properly!?
dont think i hate anyone enough to kill them, but there's sum peeps i'd bury alive in see through coffin put them in me patio then just dance on top! tee hee although i'd let them out when they start turning a funny shade of purple!
now for u!
fave chocolate bar?
fave item of clothing
peep u wouldn't spit on if they was on fire?
song that gets u horny?
when/if u play monopoly what r u?? shoe, hat ect?
ur idol?
if u could be trapped in a lift with someone who would it b?
if u could do anything illegal and get away with it what would it b?
fav ice cream?
*hugs*
here b the answer's
black
pepsi max
tank girl / foxfire
the crow although that'll b a comic / kurt cobain journals
snow tiger or a snake
hate cauliflower!
me black/red stripy boy pants with skull and cross bones on! yay!
didnt like monster ball that much but i think seein billy bob nakie and shoutin "why! does he get to fuck angelina!" still dont get it! put me off watch it properly!?
dont think i hate anyone enough to kill them, but there's sum peeps i'd bury alive in see through coffin put them in me patio then just dance on top! tee hee although i'd let them out when they start turning a funny shade of purple!
now for u!
fave chocolate bar?
fave item of clothing
peep u wouldn't spit on if they was on fire?
song that gets u horny?
when/if u play monopoly what r u?? shoe, hat ect?
ur idol?
if u could be trapped in a lift with someone who would it b?
if u could do anything illegal and get away with it what would it b?
fav ice cream?
*hugs*
I don't deserve anyone being nice to me over this- what am I thinking- I've made a mountain out of a molehill... I always do.
Why do I have to blow everything so out of proportion sometimes?
Why do we do this to ourselves? Make things more dramatic than they ever need to be until EVERYONE just gets hurt- not least of all the last...
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Why do I have to blow everything so out of proportion sometimes?
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photo_obscura:
life is so fucking awful right now
i think i'm suffering from MPD
i think i'm dying
i think my head is breaking open
i think i'm going to fucking scream
i don't want to go to the train station, how can he be so NICE now?!?!?!??????????????????????????
oh my
god
i'm going to kill someone
hopefully ME
i think i'm suffering from MPD
i think i'm dying
i think my head is breaking open
i think i'm going to fucking scream
i don't want to go to the train station, how can he be so NICE now?!?!?!??????????????????????????
oh my
god
i'm going to kill someone
hopefully ME
faith:
You haven't made an ass out of yourself here....never worry about that...I know what it is like to see yourself doing/saying things that you don't really mean to have done but yet feel unable to rationalise why you've done them or worry about your ability to stop yourself from doing them again. See, at least you have the clarity to know that what's going on isn't right, there are people in this world that don't.
So stop beating yourself up for how you've acted or what you've done, it's over work with him to make sure it doesn't happen again. The only way to do that is through communication, you need to be honest with yourself and him about how you were feeling then because he can't read your mind and without you telling him he is left up to his own conclusions which is never, ever good because you are right, someday he might just leave. I've lost the one man I have ever truly been in love with by not doing what advising you on now. But that's me and we all have our own paths.
Anyway, please don't think I'm preaching in your journal, I'm just trying to lend support and wish you well.
{{{hugs}}}
So stop beating yourself up for how you've acted or what you've done, it's over work with him to make sure it doesn't happen again. The only way to do that is through communication, you need to be honest with yourself and him about how you were feeling then because he can't read your mind and without you telling him he is left up to his own conclusions which is never, ever good because you are right, someday he might just leave. I've lost the one man I have ever truly been in love with by not doing what advising you on now. But that's me and we all have our own paths.
Anyway, please don't think I'm preaching in your journal, I'm just trying to lend support and wish you well.
{{{hugs}}}
Bright sunny day INSIDE THE BOWL OF A FUCKING TOILET. yeah. thanks.
i'm sick and i don't have a home
i'm sick and i don't have a home
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photo_obscura:
i'm so sad... i need a hug
clara:
But you are sweet enough to "sing" me the birthday song, so *many hugs coming your way, right now*.
Saturday- a brightm sunny, cool Saturday morning in Dundee, 'city of discovery' and Scotland's nicest least touristy city.
I live in an apartment that's like an art gallery- all cream walls, everything arranged in this almost flawless symetry- a place filled with art books, novels, music and art materials. The kitchen is always tidy save for the bay window which never contains less than seven...
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melvin_:
i got a cant breath coz got a cold thing goin on so mainly lazin bout feelin sorry for myself although i do got a sexy husky voice so thats the only good thing. might venture out to brighton get me sum dr martens!! yay! might dye me hair perkle again or maybe pink?!
hope things work out for you honey!
hope things work out for you honey!
eris23:
omigod
this is so long! *rant alert*big spew ahead*
to hell with peer groups and demographics.
i think that i have never found more than a few people with whom i could be truly close, and only slightly more who are worth having as any kind of friend. sure, the squares are nice enough, but they scare too easily, and i can tell they couldn't keep their wits about them if the fit hit the shan. i live with the vague notion that i am a true native of earth and everyone else is from another planet.
so i love the fact that i am into shit that almost no one else has ever heard of. example: one of my all-time favourite albums is called "vox orbita." i have never in my life, in hundreds of record shops, ever seen another copy besides mine. ever. and my man is a record junkie, so i've had plenty of chances. but it is totally one of my desert island discs.
music is part of the fabric of who you are. most modern music is, without a doubt, shite derivitive nonesuch. there was some kind of illness that took over after 1993. i got into electronic music at this time because rock sucked skanky ass. i found out that i love dancing, and the gorgeous intricacy of really quality techno massaging my brain. oh yeah, and there were some drugs taken...ahem...but these are all formative experiences that have taken me to where i am today. so revel in your aloneness! it's heaps better than "fitting in" particularly if you think society is a bit of a joke to begin with. who WANTS to listen to mariah carey albums, hang out at the mall, worrying about "those people" mailing you anthrax and ignoring the gaping wound where your soul got ripped out? certainly no one i would have as a friend.
this is so long! *rant alert*big spew ahead*
to hell with peer groups and demographics.
i think that i have never found more than a few people with whom i could be truly close, and only slightly more who are worth having as any kind of friend. sure, the squares are nice enough, but they scare too easily, and i can tell they couldn't keep their wits about them if the fit hit the shan. i live with the vague notion that i am a true native of earth and everyone else is from another planet.
so i love the fact that i am into shit that almost no one else has ever heard of. example: one of my all-time favourite albums is called "vox orbita." i have never in my life, in hundreds of record shops, ever seen another copy besides mine. ever. and my man is a record junkie, so i've had plenty of chances. but it is totally one of my desert island discs.
music is part of the fabric of who you are. most modern music is, without a doubt, shite derivitive nonesuch. there was some kind of illness that took over after 1993. i got into electronic music at this time because rock sucked skanky ass. i found out that i love dancing, and the gorgeous intricacy of really quality techno massaging my brain. oh yeah, and there were some drugs taken...ahem...but these are all formative experiences that have taken me to where i am today. so revel in your aloneness! it's heaps better than "fitting in" particularly if you think society is a bit of a joke to begin with. who WANTS to listen to mariah carey albums, hang out at the mall, worrying about "those people" mailing you anthrax and ignoring the gaping wound where your soul got ripped out? certainly no one i would have as a friend.
I think my boyfriend has turned me into something of a musical elitest- like... I used to listen to basically nothing but contemporary stuff. Indie. Alternative. Now I puke at the concept at so much of what IS 'modern music' and instead find a kind of solace in old records- in his knowledge of music.... he's like a fucking musical encyclopaedia who can reel off...
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photo_obscura:
One from the archives......
"I got some satisfaction from lifting up your dress
A slap in the face is worth a hundred words.
When I open my eyes again I expect that you'll be gone,
But you always do what I expect.
I'm stopping everything, making fun of myself,
Drinking lipstick, tipping bookshelves,
Ripping up words that I thought were important
- maybe that'll blow the window open.
Everything I say is a stupid lie.
I won't tell the truth even when I die.
I'll pick myself to pieces 'til the end of time,
Then I'll glue them back together in a stupid rhyme, yeah yeah.
There's a story of a girl so sleepy, she could not be roused.
She was kissed by pigs and doctors all over the land.
The birds in the trees came down and landed in her hair.
They built a nest and the little birdies hatched it there.
Teach me something, rip out my hair,
Send me flying through the air.
Do something why don't you, fuck it, do something,
I'm so bored I sleep...
Why don't you go out and talk some shit,
Stand up kick 'em all in the family jewels.
We'll watch them as their guts unfold,
Then we'll rob a 7-11 and hit the road.
I can be quiet or I can be loud,
Anything to make my daddy proud.
We'll take hostages make demands,
Set fire to all our best laid plans.
We'll assemble volatile explosive devices,
Sell them for exorbitant prices.
Purchase an aircraft learn to fly,
Run out of gas while we're in the sky.
Automatic pilot and x-ray spex,
We were kissing in the cockpit when the airplane wrecked.
Everything I say is a stupid lie.
I won't tell the truth even when I die.
I'll pick myself to pieces 'til the end of time,
Then I'll glue them back together in a stupid rhyme, yeah yeah. "
....memories....
"I got some satisfaction from lifting up your dress
A slap in the face is worth a hundred words.
When I open my eyes again I expect that you'll be gone,
But you always do what I expect.
I'm stopping everything, making fun of myself,
Drinking lipstick, tipping bookshelves,
Ripping up words that I thought were important
- maybe that'll blow the window open.
Everything I say is a stupid lie.
I won't tell the truth even when I die.
I'll pick myself to pieces 'til the end of time,
Then I'll glue them back together in a stupid rhyme, yeah yeah.
There's a story of a girl so sleepy, she could not be roused.
She was kissed by pigs and doctors all over the land.
The birds in the trees came down and landed in her hair.
They built a nest and the little birdies hatched it there.
Teach me something, rip out my hair,
Send me flying through the air.
Do something why don't you, fuck it, do something,
I'm so bored I sleep...
Why don't you go out and talk some shit,
Stand up kick 'em all in the family jewels.
We'll watch them as their guts unfold,
Then we'll rob a 7-11 and hit the road.
I can be quiet or I can be loud,
Anything to make my daddy proud.
We'll take hostages make demands,
Set fire to all our best laid plans.
We'll assemble volatile explosive devices,
Sell them for exorbitant prices.
Purchase an aircraft learn to fly,
Run out of gas while we're in the sky.
Automatic pilot and x-ray spex,
We were kissing in the cockpit when the airplane wrecked.
Everything I say is a stupid lie.
I won't tell the truth even when I die.
I'll pick myself to pieces 'til the end of time,
Then I'll glue them back together in a stupid rhyme, yeah yeah. "
....memories....
rookin:
are you there?
j'ai envie des tels quelques jours de monstre. je me sens pris au pige. je me sens sans valeur. parfois je me demande comment je suis peru par mes amis, ma famille que je ne parle jamais , mes co ouvriers. j'appartiens cet abme, l'tat de non production et moi ne sait pas ce que pour faire. j'ai le meilleur d'intentions, je vais recevoir mon...
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poppysprite:
ha ha. (re: folks and fucks). I visited York when I lived in England, but I didn't get to the northwest end. I love their accents though. I want to just leave the states. I'm tired of this place. So are you for or against Blair on this war thing? I hate it. I think it's leading to trouble. I'd move across the ocean right now though, if i could find any ol' job there!
fluoxytine:
Re:Scotland.
'Increased levels of eccentrity'? Yeah that sounds like us. We're incredibly forward at being backards. I blame 'Braveheart' myself.
'Increased levels of eccentrity'? Yeah that sounds like us. We're incredibly forward at being backards. I blame 'Braveheart' myself.
so much packed into today that i don't even know where to start.
work. 4 days in and i'm really... sadly and pathetically fucking tired of getting up at eight and going to bed at midnight. those are not prime sleeping hours!!!... not to mention that Iain is habitually a night-hawk, so i go to bed with him pottering about in the next room and...
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work. 4 days in and i'm really... sadly and pathetically fucking tired of getting up at eight and going to bed at midnight. those are not prime sleeping hours!!!... not to mention that Iain is habitually a night-hawk, so i go to bed with him pottering about in the next room and...
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saturn1:
it is my opinion that the suit in stop making sense was HUGE ... i think it could attack people and eat them up. but david byrne is my favorite so i like it. hrmm i dunno which davey-boy i like the best
mora:
hahahaahah you make me laugh.
AND a new pic. nice. you look a lot like the lovely miss Isobel in it. very similar mouth.
AND a new pic. nice. you look a lot like the lovely miss Isobel in it. very similar mouth.