I need to crawl back into bed, pull the covers over my head and pretend that today isn't happening- at least until tomorrow. Bad days are just inescapable. I need a vacation. 
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Shit shit shit.
May be sleeping on the street tonight....
What do you do when you call your boyfriend of three and a half years from work to find him going crazy and accusing you of leading a double-life behind his back and saying he's done with all the deceit, lies, bullshit and with not being treated with the respect he deserves and is kicking...
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May be sleeping on the street tonight....
What do you do when you call your boyfriend of three and a half years from work to find him going crazy and accusing you of leading a double-life behind his back and saying he's done with all the deceit, lies, bullshit and with not being treated with the respect he deserves and is kicking...
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tired today. feeling fatalistic. typing one-handedly. we went into town, there was an anti-war demonstration on ini front of the town hall, which was entertaining, but not half as entertaining as the 'bomb scare' in the parking lot of the overgate... not that i can even be sure that's what it was, they just wouldn't let anyone out into the multi-story car-park and the old...
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chlamydia:
First comment right here! Whooop! Actually the computer is being pretty decent for me, which is suprising. Usually nothing goes my way, so hmm..maybe I'm due for something REALLY bad here soon. I'm going on a plane tomorrow, maybe it will be hijacked or something. Oh well. Sounds like you had an interesting day.
Thanks, one and all, for your posts the last few days, I have been pretty bummed-out, it's nice to actually not be alone for once in my enneyeux...
Work today is dragging- I didn't want to leave this morning, mostly because Holy Shit, I made my poor guy ill with my drifter-germies For some reason anything I pass onto him he gets twice as bad....
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Work today is dragging- I didn't want to leave this morning, mostly because Holy Shit, I made my poor guy ill with my drifter-germies For some reason anything I pass onto him he gets twice as bad....
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sabine:
i just read your last entry too and it's funny, i'm ALWAYS feeling overtly negative or positive and it changes day to day. i'm mercurial in deed though i don't know why. the sunshine made me happy too. i'm going to go write about sunshine in my journal. 
Am I the only person in the world not freaking out about this whole 'war' thing? I don't know what it is. Maybe when things start blowing up I will feel more in touch with it, but it feels like they've been talking about it for so long that.... oh you know what I mean 
'Chemical warfare, chemical warfare, chemical warfare, warfare,warfare....'
Is it time...
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'Chemical warfare, chemical warfare, chemical warfare, warfare,warfare....'
Is it time...
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photo_obscura:
Thanks, all- mae govannan, even- you are all *most* welcome...
Work today is going to drag- At least it's almost lunch, but regardless, I didn't want to leave this morning, mostly because Holy Shit, I made my poor guy ill with my germies For some reason anything I pass onto him he gets twice as bad. So now he's running a fever while I have to work- I'm a lot worried about the poor guy
Send him some good juju, will ya? he needs it as he lays upon what he japes is his deathbed...
We might all be on our deathbeds- not that I feel any more 'with' what's going on in Iraq, I just woke up this morning and thought-
'I wonder what we're going to blow up today...'
I'm building a rocket-ship to get off this planet- who's with me?
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Work today is going to drag- At least it's almost lunch, but regardless, I didn't want to leave this morning, mostly because Holy Shit, I made my poor guy ill with my germies
For some reason anything I pass onto him he gets twice as bad. So now he's running a fever while I have to work- I'm a lot worried about the poor guy
Send him some good juju, will ya? he needs it as he lays upon what he japes is his deathbed...
We might all be on our deathbeds- not that I feel any more 'with' what's going on in Iraq, I just woke up this morning and thought-
'I wonder what we're going to blow up today...'
I'm building a rocket-ship to get off this planet- who's with me?
[Edited on Mar 20, 2003]
infestu:
Jen sounds like your worrying about things out of your control i've got a relationship with a girl i love to bits but not sure if i'm in love with her still and thats driving me to distraction.sounds like youve got it ruff though havin come all that way fit 6 of what makes you hot so you've made me smile cos if things go wrong there's people who like my type out there.Dx
Tossing and turning- Woke up late... gnarly, headachey, i said it before and I'll say it again- I need a really good massage.
I feel fucking tense as hell today. Mr Downstairs neighbour has his music on fucking full blast and I'm on the verge of going down there and giving him a good kick in the ass. Fucking floorboards are vibrating. Fucker. If my...
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I feel fucking tense as hell today. Mr Downstairs neighbour has his music on fucking full blast and I'm on the verge of going down there and giving him a good kick in the ass. Fucking floorboards are vibrating. Fucker. If my...
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sabine:
ps i love you for knowing that smashing pumpkins song
drunkpunk:
Our bassist is making me VERY pissed off today
Almost three am- ye insomnia returneth. I need a massage...
Listening to 'Nighthawks at the diner' Tom Waits- the injection of humour make sthat album for me...
How do you even start writing a novel? I was browsing all the Word files Iain has on this computer and he has about eight BEGINNINGS of novels he's started and then quit on. I can't work him...
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Listening to 'Nighthawks at the diner' Tom Waits- the injection of humour make sthat album for me...
How do you even start writing a novel? I was browsing all the Word files Iain has on this computer and he has about eight BEGINNINGS of novels he's started and then quit on. I can't work him...
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webigailboop:
i never noticed that the hottest state is one of your favorite books. that book is so amazing, not enough people have read it. have you read ethan hawke's second book, ash wednesday? it's pretty good, but doesn't even compare to the hottest state.
noelle:
I`m thinking of a sort of modified chelsea? But i`ve been growing it out for a long time, so i`m nervous. It`s just that with summer coming, i want to be able to just get up and go. I want to be super low maintenence.
Actually, my weekend was fantastic!!
Actually, my weekend was fantastic!!
Jeux sans frontires
Jeux sans frontires
Things going down today-
Had the greatest of wake-up sex this morning- nothing like being wokrn up and in the next second you're... well, you know what I mean. Pretty great way to start any day, eh?
Ate one of Iain's hard-to-come-by-poppyseed bagels - which he's gonna be pissed about since he's... uh- paying for EVERYTHING grocery-wise and here...
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Jeux sans frontires
Things going down today-
Had the greatest of wake-up sex this morning- nothing like being wokrn up and in the next second you're... well, you know what I mean. Pretty great way to start any day, eh?
Ate one of Iain's hard-to-come-by-poppyseed bagels - which he's gonna be pissed about since he's... uh- paying for EVERYTHING grocery-wise and here...
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melvin_:
mmmmm knee-high boots! pics?
sparkle:
dude.....i really dont need to be sleeping right now, gotta go see the idiot make his speech in about 20 mins. hallucinating off of a melon sounds way bad..ive tripped off of muscle relaxers and speed before, kinda weird. the weather here is pretty dreary also, but i love the way it sounds always puts me in a mood....*rawr*
Alright... so we're back home. It's so nice to be back after this hellish weekend apart. Thank god... Iain and I met up at the train station (I sat and waited for whjat felt like ages in the freezing cold, but it was worth it), and we talked as we walked home. He is so sweet to me... asking me if I wanted to get...
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sabine:
you are the sweetest, ever. :kisses:
i have periods of mood swings, but i'm sure i'll feel sane again soon. of course if you were here i would delight in your pampering. either way thanks for the kind words.
i have periods of mood swings, but i'm sure i'll feel sane again soon. of course if you were here i would delight in your pampering. either way thanks for the kind words.
melvin_:
hey lady!
here b the answer's
black
pepsi max
tank girl / foxfire
the crow although that'll b a comic / kurt cobain journals
snow tiger or a snake
hate cauliflower!
me black/red stripy boy pants with skull and cross bones on! yay!
didnt like monster ball that much but i think seein billy bob nakie and shoutin "why! does he get to fuck angelina!" still dont get it! put me off watch it properly!?
dont think i hate anyone enough to kill them, but there's sum peeps i'd bury alive in see through coffin put them in me patio then just dance on top! tee hee although i'd let them out when they start turning a funny shade of purple!
now for u!
fave chocolate bar?
fave item of clothing
peep u wouldn't spit on if they was on fire?
song that gets u horny?
when/if u play monopoly what r u?? shoe, hat ect?
ur idol?
if u could be trapped in a lift with someone who would it b?
if u could do anything illegal and get away with it what would it b?
fav ice cream?
*hugs*
here b the answer's
black
pepsi max
tank girl / foxfire
the crow although that'll b a comic / kurt cobain journals
snow tiger or a snake
hate cauliflower!
me black/red stripy boy pants with skull and cross bones on! yay!
didnt like monster ball that much but i think seein billy bob nakie and shoutin "why! does he get to fuck angelina!" still dont get it! put me off watch it properly!?
dont think i hate anyone enough to kill them, but there's sum peeps i'd bury alive in see through coffin put them in me patio then just dance on top! tee hee although i'd let them out when they start turning a funny shade of purple!
now for u!
fave chocolate bar?
fave item of clothing
peep u wouldn't spit on if they was on fire?
song that gets u horny?
when/if u play monopoly what r u?? shoe, hat ect?
ur idol?
if u could be trapped in a lift with someone who would it b?
if u could do anything illegal and get away with it what would it b?
fav ice cream?
*hugs*
I don't deserve anyone being nice to me over this- what am I thinking- I've made a mountain out of a molehill... I always do.
Why do I have to blow everything so out of proportion sometimes?
Why do we do this to ourselves? Make things more dramatic than they ever need to be until EVERYONE just gets hurt- not least of all the last...
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Why do I have to blow everything so out of proportion sometimes?
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photo_obscura:
life is so fucking awful right now
i think i'm suffering from MPD
i think i'm dying
i think my head is breaking open
i think i'm going to fucking scream
i don't want to go to the train station, how can he be so NICE now?!?!?!??????????????????????????
oh my
god
i'm going to kill someone
hopefully ME
i think i'm suffering from MPD
i think i'm dying
i think my head is breaking open
i think i'm going to fucking scream
i don't want to go to the train station, how can he be so NICE now?!?!?!??????????????????????????
oh my
god
i'm going to kill someone
hopefully ME
faith:
You haven't made an ass out of yourself here....never worry about that...I know what it is like to see yourself doing/saying things that you don't really mean to have done but yet feel unable to rationalise why you've done them or worry about your ability to stop yourself from doing them again. See, at least you have the clarity to know that what's going on isn't right, there are people in this world that don't.
So stop beating yourself up for how you've acted or what you've done, it's over work with him to make sure it doesn't happen again. The only way to do that is through communication, you need to be honest with yourself and him about how you were feeling then because he can't read your mind and without you telling him he is left up to his own conclusions which is never, ever good because you are right, someday he might just leave. I've lost the one man I have ever truly been in love with by not doing what advising you on now. But that's me and we all have our own paths.
Anyway, please don't think I'm preaching in your journal, I'm just trying to lend support and wish you well.
{{{hugs}}}
So stop beating yourself up for how you've acted or what you've done, it's over work with him to make sure it doesn't happen again. The only way to do that is through communication, you need to be honest with yourself and him about how you were feeling then because he can't read your mind and without you telling him he is left up to his own conclusions which is never, ever good because you are right, someday he might just leave. I've lost the one man I have ever truly been in love with by not doing what advising you on now. But that's me and we all have our own paths.
Anyway, please don't think I'm preaching in your journal, I'm just trying to lend support and wish you well.
{{{hugs}}}
Bright sunny day INSIDE THE BOWL OF A FUCKING TOILET. yeah. thanks.
i'm sick and i don't have a home
i'm sick and i don't have a home
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photo_obscura:
i'm so sad... i need a hug
clara:
But you are sweet enough to "sing" me the birthday song, so *many hugs coming your way, right now*.
Saturday- a brightm sunny, cool Saturday morning in Dundee, 'city of discovery' and Scotland's nicest least touristy city.
I live in an apartment that's like an art gallery- all cream walls, everything arranged in this almost flawless symetry- a place filled with art books, novels, music and art materials. The kitchen is always tidy save for the bay window which never contains less than seven...
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I live in an apartment that's like an art gallery- all cream walls, everything arranged in this almost flawless symetry- a place filled with art books, novels, music and art materials. The kitchen is always tidy save for the bay window which never contains less than seven...
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melvin_:
i got a cant breath coz got a cold thing goin on so mainly lazin bout feelin sorry for myself although i do got a sexy husky voice so thats the only good thing. might venture out to brighton get me sum dr martens!! yay! might dye me hair perkle again or maybe pink?!
hope things work out for you honey!
hope things work out for you honey!
eris23:
omigod
this is so long! *rant alert*big spew ahead*
to hell with peer groups and demographics.
i think that i have never found more than a few people with whom i could be truly close, and only slightly more who are worth having as any kind of friend. sure, the squares are nice enough, but they scare too easily, and i can tell they couldn't keep their wits about them if the fit hit the shan. i live with the vague notion that i am a true native of earth and everyone else is from another planet.
so i love the fact that i am into shit that almost no one else has ever heard of. example: one of my all-time favourite albums is called "vox orbita." i have never in my life, in hundreds of record shops, ever seen another copy besides mine. ever. and my man is a record junkie, so i've had plenty of chances. but it is totally one of my desert island discs.
music is part of the fabric of who you are. most modern music is, without a doubt, shite derivitive nonesuch. there was some kind of illness that took over after 1993. i got into electronic music at this time because rock sucked skanky ass. i found out that i love dancing, and the gorgeous intricacy of really quality techno massaging my brain. oh yeah, and there were some drugs taken...ahem...but these are all formative experiences that have taken me to where i am today. so revel in your aloneness! it's heaps better than "fitting in" particularly if you think society is a bit of a joke to begin with. who WANTS to listen to mariah carey albums, hang out at the mall, worrying about "those people" mailing you anthrax and ignoring the gaping wound where your soul got ripped out? certainly no one i would have as a friend.
this is so long! *rant alert*big spew ahead*
to hell with peer groups and demographics.
i think that i have never found more than a few people with whom i could be truly close, and only slightly more who are worth having as any kind of friend. sure, the squares are nice enough, but they scare too easily, and i can tell they couldn't keep their wits about them if the fit hit the shan. i live with the vague notion that i am a true native of earth and everyone else is from another planet.
so i love the fact that i am into shit that almost no one else has ever heard of. example: one of my all-time favourite albums is called "vox orbita." i have never in my life, in hundreds of record shops, ever seen another copy besides mine. ever. and my man is a record junkie, so i've had plenty of chances. but it is totally one of my desert island discs.
music is part of the fabric of who you are. most modern music is, without a doubt, shite derivitive nonesuch. there was some kind of illness that took over after 1993. i got into electronic music at this time because rock sucked skanky ass. i found out that i love dancing, and the gorgeous intricacy of really quality techno massaging my brain. oh yeah, and there were some drugs taken...ahem...but these are all formative experiences that have taken me to where i am today. so revel in your aloneness! it's heaps better than "fitting in" particularly if you think society is a bit of a joke to begin with. who WANTS to listen to mariah carey albums, hang out at the mall, worrying about "those people" mailing you anthrax and ignoring the gaping wound where your soul got ripped out? certainly no one i would have as a friend.
how much do pirates pay to have their ears pierced?
-a buck an ear
how much do pirates pay to have their ears pierced?
-a buck an ear